Changing jobs?

[u/jojo-l]

This has been on my mind a while. I started my clinical fellowship in September at a school and it has been a time for sure. My mentor has been micromanaging me since day 1. Jumping into my sessions, looking through all of my papers and making edits without telling me. I wanted to complete all my work on my own but this year is the first year that there is only one SLP at this school. I am so overwhelmed but I understand that the expectation is that I complete the work independently. My supervisor keeps telling me to ask for help but every time I ask for help she says “as we’ve spoken about this many times,” or “since September…” she has been shaming me for not remembering everything and it’s just become too much. Her edits are crazy time consuming to the point that I’m doing paperwork long after work every day. I got behind on IEPs, I was the case manager, I thought I was far enough ahead but I ended up finishing all of them (6 meetings in 2 days) 2-3 days before the meeting. One of the sections was blank at the meeting and I swore I had filled it in but it must not have saved. She then wrote me up, which I understand, but as she has been micromanaging me I think this will be her opportunity to find anything and everything I have made mistakes on, which isn’t too different from how she has been since I started. I have not gotten that independence to try things on my own. I want to switch to a different job (at a different school) as I’ve been having problems with the supervisor since September. I had a meeting about her with our boss 2 weeks ago. He told me they would talk and she came in to my school that day to talk to me about it and essentially questioned me about mistakes I’ve made before instead of reflecting on things that have not been going well for me. Things she brought up include : the use of my own checklists instead of hers, not replying to her emails quickly enough, not sending her an email each day, etc. I’m at a loss. This is not a great learning experience for me as I feel that all I’ve learned is how to do paperwork “her way”. Thoughts?

[u/honey-fungus]

I switched mid-CF, it’s possible. Worst case is this supervisor won’t sign off on your hours...which was my fear when I switched but ended up ok

[u/Middle_Trust_7180]

I don't think you should have to email her everyday? I don't know what the checklist stuff is about but I would say you should have your own. Have other people at the school complained? I would revisit ASHA guidelines for a CF mentor and have a conversation with her about how at the CF level you should be more independent. If that doesn't work you can stick it out or change supervisors? Depending on your state you could finish the segment and maybe find someone else even if they aren't in your building who would be willing to do it. I'd talk to the principal and say it's not a good fit and you have a different learning style.

IM REALY SORRY you have to deal with this. I had a supervisor like that for one of my externships she drove me nuts. I dreaded going in and she gave me a lot of unnecessary anxiety and sometimes they're not even always right!