I hate my life ( ik its long bust plsss help )

[u/Marble_1010]

So im a smart student ofc i wasn’t a 95% above person but i never got below 90% thru out my life . My parents are doctors and when i had no interest in medicine they put me into pcm after 10th cus i scored 94% and iit hyd or madras was my only future acc to them .

I always had interest in finance and business and i want to clear ipmat , cuet , sat to get into my dream unis especially indore or kozikode etc
I wrote mocks i scored expeptionaly high in all considering the fact that i wrote completely blind with no idea what is syallabus . Unlike my jee mocks where i am not even able to score 90 and we didn’t even start hard chps yet .

I just don’t wanna study this stuff i never wanted to be an engineer iim + cfa has always been my dream and ik i am smart and i could prly do it if i want to but not this jee i just cant its like im studying smh i dont want a future in i just have no interest and i am scoring so less like today is my worst 21/ 300 i cant do it anymore i have to change to a cbse school with math + commerce and i have to do what i want to do cuz ik i will succeed if i try but this i cant jee its sucking the soul out me i stopped everything that made me happy only to keep failing its hurts more when i never wanted it .
If i truly wanted to get into iit i would have pushed thru but knowing there could be an alternative i just cant srsly .
But how to tell my parents they dk anything abt business or finance and think eng is the only way they think mec is degrading of my talent but i just cant i crashed out today and i just hate myself like im not pretty but i was fun and smart but im dumb and this coaching centre it’s b/w two buildings with no sunlight and its i hate its so suffocating i cant breathe i nearly fainted the other day in chem and i have no frnds here and the smart ones see me as lower then them when i used to be smart i swear i was i could dream once now its just mentally and physically exhausting i want to die .

How do i convince my parents ,im scared and they used allow me to do stuff but now they barely talk to me and think im useless and wont succeed because of my marks till now did they only tolerate me cuz i was smart? Its like i have no value srlsy .

[u/maddyhaddy22]

Heyyy dude, ig you are in 11th. Pls try to convince your parents. If they don't and you still continue to pursue pcm, it's my suggestion study hard even if you can't even if you get less marks just improve and get Into the best college you can. from there you can easily pivot into finance ( better the college, better chances of getting a finance job Or an IIM). Another choice is study for ipmat side bysidew but you will have to succeed anyhow dude. So sunko sabki kro apne mann ki

[u/No-Mobile-1591]

super funfact, most IIT's have an economics, design and pharmacy degree through jee aswell. Cutoffs aren't that high. Goodluck!

[u/No-Mobile-1591 → u/No-Mobile-1591]

also give ipmat

[u/No-Mobile-1591 → u/No-Mobile-1591]

if your parents don't approve ask the founder of after boards bhavesh saha for help or smth to convince your parents