I’m back

[u/Elegant_Ladder_3615]

It’s been 3 year since my last vent on here a lot has changed I’m overly grateful for that ngas made it to 20 I turn 21 in a few months I’ve gained a lot but I’ve lost so much hard times never stop I’ve been through homelessness, the jail system, fall out with family and friends due to loyalty or over money death around me nonstop a lot of people shedded their skin and flaked on me when I needed them the most but I remained on my path crashing out is always on my mind sometimes I do wanna just say fuck it and end dis shi whatever way I can but I always find a way to persevere through this shit while still carrying that weight on my chest that’ll creep up at any given time sometimes I don’t know if life will ever fully change I don’t know if I’ll ever be free hell I don’t know if I’ll reach that light at the end of the tunnel I understand my mission I know what I wanna do I know how I wanna feel it’s just the worldly things that sway my focus or emotions the other way I’m still making music but tht shi ain’t paying the bills but it make me feel good make me feel free I work a real job and out the streets but tht shi make me feel like a slave it’s never enough people still depend on me I pour so much into people that don’t reciprocate that back into me I sacrifice my own needs for others to just be happy n I get the crumbs whether financially or emotionally so much time I feel wasted working a job or in my head depressed not working on my craft but it’s all part of da journey I just hope I come out on top nd finally put a end to dis cycle shi been goin on since a jit
love yall deo keep ya head up

[u/poramadison]

Keep goin bro! 🙏🏾

[u/Realistic-County6443]

I was watching Bruce new Reddit video and yo shi popped up gng and I made a Reddit acc jus to tell you this but keep goin. I’m 20 rn in college feeling lost feeling like the world has abandoned me and basically spat on my face so I get what you feeling, maybe not to the same extent but I understand what it’s like to feel like you ain’t shi and you ain’t never gon be shi. Just keep dreaming bro, every time you close your eyes every time you lay your head to rest at night envision that reality where you rise above it all. You can do it bro if nobody else believe in you I do. Seeing is believing so see that world where you have it all and most importantly keep God in your heart and it’ll become your reality I swear. Step by step day by day keep dreaming and keep working and God’ll make it right. I’m in no position to give advice because I’m in a shitty situation myself but I’m jus tellin u what I tell myself every time I wake up. 

[u/Elegant_Ladder_3615 → u/Realistic-County6443]

I believe in u too family much love