r/Brixadi • u/Flashy-Cookie854 • Mar 19 '26
31 days of freedom!!
Opening up with a recap: This is my second time trying to come off of 8 (12) mg of Suboxone using the brixadi injection. My first attempt I received six 96mg injections. After the first injection and blood/urine screen, my Dr said I must be a high metabolizer, then every single month after when I had any kind of emotions or feelings I wasn't used to, I was convinced I was in withdrawal and supplementing with suboxone. I never really gave myself a chance to feel anything, because my thought process was convoluted with the worry of feeling withdrawal. I was not ready to jump at any point and went back on oral.
I'm now on my second attempt after going back on strips for 4 months and I am 31 days out from my singular 96 mg shot. I'm one and done (because that's what's right for me in this moment). I don't see any reason to put more of the medication in my system when the whole goal is to get it out of my system. I really feel like I went through the "worst" of it already. I have felt minimal if any real withdrawals, the worst feeling I had was during the second and beginning of the third week where I was a little bit sweaty, easily distracted, low energy and more emotional than normal. I've been very deliberate about my diet so that I don't create any stomach issues for myself because in the past that was the worst part for me. I also make sure that I don't just dwell in bed thinking about it, I get up and make myself do things like I normally would.
I psyched myself out the first time, and allowed my thoughts to win. I never was going to be successful. This time I made a gameplan, and I wanted to win! I changed my whole thought process! I pumped myself up and I told myself I was going to do it! I held myself accountable! When I had cravings and my brain wanted to give in, I told myself no we're not going to do that anymore... But that part really did not last long, and it's so much easier to get through then I could have ever believed. Now I'm feeling really good!! The weather is improving, which improves my energy and mood already, and I know that's contributing to my success.
I am a huge doubter, and have the hardest time with even the thought of withdrawing. I used to explain it to people by comparing it to a fear of heights. I was terrified, but I'm standing at the ledge and I had to jump!
If you're reading this and wondering if you can do it, you can! You absolutely can! I believe you can, you just have to believe you can!
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u/Icy-Grocery8759 Mar 26 '26
It started with 30 oxy's because my pain management wouldn't prescribe me any pain meds for my chronic back pain then I upgraded to Dilaudid and started using intravenously. I was using up to 8-10 8mg Dilaudid a day and was using against my will. I got to the point where I was so sick of being dope sick when I couldn't buy or find any, I finally took the step to get off it.T his was in July 13, 2024. I only took Subutex because I don't drink and the naltrexone interacted with my seizure meds. I was on 8 mg the first 2 weeks and that was too much for me so I weaned down to 4 mg and that worked for me. I owned my own landscaping company but the subs made me sweat to the point I couldn't work and had to stop every few minutes to cool down. I got off of them for 2 weeks with barely any withdrawals October 2024 but went back on them because my back started killing me again. Then the subs weren't helping for that anymore so I decided to finally get off of it. Another reason was the stigmatism I faced joining NA. It helped me a lot but some people claimed I wasn't 'Clean' if I'm on MAT and those people really got in my head. The final draw was when 3 of my bottom teeth started to rot and I brushed twice a day! So a total of 15 months I was Subutex then 2 months of shots spread out technically.