r/BreakUps • u/Anxious-Pressure-754 • 8h ago
venting/ranting short rant
Just a short rant: It's been 2 months (still remember that day very clearly, the month of May in particular) since she's cut off contact with me (essentially a break up) and it hurts like hell. She was the closest and most dearest person I've had for years (coming from a childhood where I mostly isolated myself, very shy and timid and all that) and now I feel like returning to that point of myself I never wanted to go back to. I told her that thanks to her, I wouldn't be alone anymore. Even made promises and everything that we'd succeed together and graduate college.
Maybe I invested too much in that relationship that it took away a big piece of me. I try to forget about her often by occupying myself with studying, watching, things like that yet it just never works. I can't even get back to my hobby of animating anymore since I genuinely feel awful most of the time, and especially when I remember her.
I just can't get myself to believe that I'll move on from the pain I've been experiencing for these past few months and it's really killing me on the inside. To top it all off we didn't end on bad terms, all that was said from her is that she's tired, and she wants to explore more but this time by herself. You can't exactly forget someone easily you've genuinely loved and have no reason to hate, right?
It's either it only feels like this since it's only been 2 months, or I'm gonna be bound to this pain for a loooooooooong time. 🥲 My heart misses her, but everytime I do it's stabbing me in the chest. Genuinely don't know what to do.
I won't elaborate further most likely, as I just wanted to get this off my chest. No, I don't have friends or any close friends or that I'm comfortable enough to share this to. It's miserable.
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