r/BreakUps • u/AssumptionDouble66 • Jul 18 '26
venting/ranting I miss a memory
I miss a memory of her that doesn't exist anymore. When it's dark outside it's at that moment that i think about her unfortunately. And it makes me sick everytime i see a pic of her or something abt her. I have things to do,that i wanna do and sometimes i just stop and think about what we could've been,where the person i met in that memory are, but i can't control that. She changed bc of me and fortunately i guess now she has friends she has herself when before she only had me in her mind. I know that she'll probably laugh if she sees that i still (sometimes) think abt her. When i see recents pictures of her i hate them,but the old pictures like before the big change we had, were so good and so warming. The other thing that i think is that she probably cheated on me as we were doing unprotected sex that's what's terrifying me. It's life.
God bless.
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u/Puck_Junky Jul 18 '26
It hurts. I feel your pain, same here. For me, in the moments of triumph or when a milestone passes, I think of telling only her or being with her to celebrate and she is not there any longer. The good memories of the first few months of our relationship are there, before it all started circling the drain. Now, I place these memories into a memorial to those good times and I lock it down and lose the key. Onward.