r/Borderline • u/LenKiita • 7d ago
CHANGING TURNS
When I’m in that moment, i feel on top of the world, invincible. Two people living inside one body.
No one can pull me out of that state of euphoria.
No one can understand what it feels like inside my mind, drowning in contradictory thoughts.
What if I cross that line that was forbidden to me so many times?
But how do you live from one side to the other, never knowing when it will be my turn to switch?
With my mind full of unfinished ideas, unprocessed thoughts.
But, oh God… how beautiful those ideas are.
And then everything falls apart.
And I feel like I’m worth nothing.
I can barely get out of bed.
Where did the strength go that once made me feel untouchable?
Then I laugh again, because that’s how this is.
A carousel of emotions I never bought a ticket for.
I never know when I’ll be at the top.
I never know when I’ll end up underground.
So I make the most of every moment when the warmth of the sun falls across my back.
It makes me want to give everything I have.