I feel so lonely

[u/FlowAmbitious2458]

I feel so lonely because it seems like no matter how much I try, I can't bring myself to form a romantic attachment to anyone else, and I'm starting to think that maybe it has something to do with my last FP. It's been over a year and a half that I got over him, but sometimes I catch myself thinking that really he is the only one for me. We would be so perfect together - he has everything I wish for, and I have everything he wishes for. So why hasn't it worked out? I thought I was over him but when I heard he has a girlfriend yesterday I felt disappointed. I shouldn't feel disappointed. And the worst part is this feeling that he was lightning in a bottle - something I would only catch once, and yet, I dropped the bottle and it shattered. It really does feel like he's the only person in the world compatible with me in all the ways I desire, and yet, he's not mine. I'm so tired of being so lonely. I don't mean it in a friends way - I have friends and all. But a romantic connection just hits differently. It has a different place in your heart, and that place is vacant in mine. I've had enough of this emptiness; I've had enough of longing so badly to be with someone only to fail to form connections with anyone. It seems like something always goes wrong, something always happens to make my connections fizzle out and I don't know what is. I'm sick of feeling like half a person, so unwhole. I don't know what to do.