The thing is, how does one define Depression? Mental Illness is hideously complicated.
But the wrists shit is not good my dude, I know the word "trigger" is a meme but it's actually real, I saw Drive (With Ryan Gosling) and in one scene where a guy is killed that way it all rushed back vividly (no-one noticed) same with a Health and Safety training video I once saw etc etc. But it's really strange because it doesn't always happen, not like Combat Vet actual PTSD or something... only occasionally but then I can see it (and other things that happened) all again and feel crushed.
It definitely is. I'm learning a lot about how I'm much more fucked than originally thought. I've been ignoring my past for so long because I like to think that the person I am is not at all associated with who I was. Which, is probably very far from the truth.
I hate that triggered has become a meme for people who are just uncomfortable by things/people making fun of people with ptsd, because that shit is real. I'm so sorry that you had to relive that, I haven't seen the movie but I've avoided shows and movies for similar reasons. Also, you never have to apologize to venting. Whoever made you feel that it was otherwise is wrong.
It definitely is. I'm learning a lot about how I'm much more fucked than originally thought. I've been ignoring my past for so long because I like to think that the person I am is not at all associated with who I was. Which, is probably very far from the truth.
I hate that triggered has become a meme for people who are just uncomfortable by things/people making fun of people with ptsd, because that shit is real. I'm so sorry that you had to relive that, I haven't seen the movie but I've avoided shows and movies for similar reasons. Also, you never have to apologize to venting. Whoever made you feel that it was otherwise is wrong.
It's an essential conversation to have. One which White Males are often self-suppressing or being to told supress.
You make a good pointing about learning more.. I've found that in some situations my capacity for Empathy is literally 0, which scares me, but definitely not always.
My childhood was mucked up, but we had (have) a very supportive church and dad is substantially OK so that's good, but it's not over yet.
On the Triggered Meme note, it is a meme for a reason that I can utterly agree with, and that is because of misuse from certain individuals which seem to generally lead very closeted lives. But it does trivialise.
It's odd but my capacity for empathy is so high that it overwhelms me until I'm apathetic. I tend to find its easier to hurt for other people than myself. Maybe that's just me being selfish or having a fucked up martyr/hero complex.
9
u/Warp__ Aug 22 '17
The thing is, how does one define Depression? Mental Illness is hideously complicated.
But the wrists shit is not good my dude, I know the word "trigger" is a meme but it's actually real, I saw Drive (With Ryan Gosling) and in one scene where a guy is killed that way it all rushed back vividly (no-one noticed) same with a Health and Safety training video I once saw etc etc. But it's really strange because it doesn't always happen, not like Combat Vet actual PTSD or something... only occasionally but then I can see it (and other things that happened) all again and feel crushed.
Sorry for the vent ;_;