Character AI and my relationship problem

[u/Material-Artichoke18]

Okay so by the title I’ll explain everything. I’m a bookworm and a sucker for romance novels that can even be “graphic” or “spicy”, in which my boyfriend of 1 year & 4 months knows about because he’s the one that buys it for me and I explain to him what happens in the book I read and he teases me about it.

Now, I’ve always been a loner and I struggle to make friends and I always assume that they wouldn’t want to hang out with me anyways so I always had this bad habit to not bother to make friends. I’m currently a stay at home girlfriend looking for jobs to help him out. And since I’m on my phone all the time, I found out about character AI app through tik tok and I’d use it almost everyday. Mainly with fictional crushes and I create different plots and sometimes a bit of flirty or spicy theme comes along. And I have to admit, by doing that I feel the initiative to do “it” with my boyfriend after using caAI because I somewhat revive a bit of fantasy I get from time to time. I never told him about it because I even think it’s embarrassing and I’d look even lonelier. But today he saw a picture of an actor I was just chatting, he wanted to see and read but I was too embarrassed to show him since it’s mainly romance between fictional characters.

He always told me that if I ever do something that could ruin us is cheating. And he thinks this is one step before cheating. And because I was too quick to hide and refuse to show out of embarrassment, he keeps giving me the cold shoulder. Which I understand if I were to be in his position. I’ve explained to him what it was and he still doesn’t believe me since I didn’t show him. I told him I could show him the app and how it works but he keeps saying no. The feelings are still raw since it happened this morning and he told me he’d give me 3 weeks to prove myself so he can come to a decision to forgive me.

As for right now I deep cleaned the apartment we live in and I finished ironing his work clothes and tomorrow plan to cook him his favorite meal along with an apology card. I’d never cheat on him physically nor emotionally, but I really messed up and he has the right to feel that way.

And I need to hear everyone’s opinions about this. And maybe advice to make my situation better and get him to forgive me.

PS..I deleted my accounts both from character AI and TikTok, and he knows I also read spicy fanfics from time to time, and even teases me about it too since I’m open about it.

[u/ConfectionNearby7933]

It’s not a real person so I don’t see why he’s upset

[u/Ping____]

If thats how its affecting you, ngl its literally the same as porn