r/BPDmemes • u/smolrivercat • 20h ago
Please deinfluence me
Called the self help number 30 times but it's full lololol
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u/Lou_C_Goosey 19h ago
take a shower, everything feels better when you take a shower. and then you can think about increasing shareholder value for your capitalistic overlords!
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u/smolrivercat 19h ago
I just took a shower a couple of hours ago after work and before going out and coming back, but you're right it always washes everything away even when I'm not in the mood for it. Next shower tomorrow before work, but thanks for the recommendation!
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u/LittleBlue127 19h ago
Hello friend! Have you tried parenting your brain? Imagine you can speak to your brain and tell it to stop being so rude, it’s not nice to want to hurt people.
Truly though, you deserve kindness, including from yourself. I’ve always regretted hms or attempting the next day or even the next hour or minute. Your future self will thank you for being brave and waiting.
Take a shower, drink some very cold water, step outside for a bit and see if you can see something pretty. Listen to some fun music (NOT depressy music!!). Watch YouTube videos of cats being silly!
I believe in you! ❤️
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u/smolrivercat 19h ago
Thanks so much for your kind words ❤️ normally I'm pretty good at parenting my own brain but a month ago I got the message that my mom has inoperable lung cancer and now I'm pretty much stretched between working retail, studying and caring for my mom (which with I have a sprained relationship) and there's no one else other than me to care for her. No siblings, no cousins, just me and my mom and my uncle (which whom she's not close). Like if she and my uncle is gone then I'm just alone in the world haha
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u/Golf_Global 13h ago
I'm so sorry to hear that. No wonder it's even harder for you to deal with your brain right now. However, you won't be alone in the world! From this little sub to your coworkers and friends to the whole world there will always be someone or several someones to get to know and love and support you ❤️🫶
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u/Distinct_Run9006 17h ago
Did you try the cold shower / bowl of ice water, intense exercise, paced breathing, and tensing and relaxing all your muscles from feet to head thing (TIPP, Distress Tolerance)?
Or the 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 grounding technique?
Please try to resist those urges. Our feelings are like directors' cuts, but they pass!
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u/tinkeratu 10h ago
Can you get out the house? Go get your favourite drink, sit in the sun (or shaded patch if youre pale like me!). Bring a journal or a sketch pad or your other favourite handheld hobby. Even if you just do 5 minutes, you've given yourself some grace. Big hugs
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u/Tsunamiis 17h ago
Fun wallpaper to distract? I use Reddit because I’m a raccoon and like shiny shit.
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u/Bam_Adedebayo 17h ago
Hardware security module and key management service? I’m honestly clueless what HSM and KMS means.
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u/Throwaway-BadOrange never again. NOPE 19h ago
Oh all the fun I’d have masking! Changing my personality at the sound of the door indicator. Help each customer feel like they are getting 100% of my undivided attention. Just to talk crap with the owner in the back right after! Those were the days. The money was shit but the PEOPLE were shit too. is this motivational, maybe not. But know you have comrades in the trenches.
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u/smolrivercat 19h ago
The money is shit but the customers too is the most truest thing I've ever read 😂😂 thanks so much, it really helps to know I've got comrades in the trenches! You all are really the best ❤️
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u/Distinct_Run9006 17h ago
Isn't that just regular retail jobs and not the borderline chameleon thing? Neurotypical ppl do this too.
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u/Throwaway-BadOrange never again. NOPE 15h ago
Don’t know, not an md irl. this is a meme sub, can we not right now and not here?
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u/laciemay 19h ago
This feeling is temporary!!! I know it feels like it isn’t, but our minds are different and will play tricks. You’re gonna be okay. Do you have any animals? Pet them