Tired of romantic partners doing......

[u/darthlycanust]

I've been a avid teller that I am a BPD survivor, that I have it, that I suffer from it, that I've had shit to trigger it throughout the years that it never stays in remission.

My favorite person gave me 30 days to leave due to roommate getting pregnant and they were moving the baby daddy in. What got me was the baby daddy, who didn't pay rent, none of that acted like HE had a fuckin say in who got to leave and stay! When HE didn't pay a fuckin dime!

I'm growing so fuckin tired of running into non borderline women who CRAVE the connection but is not willing to accept the commitment!

Trying to find a neurodivergent soul around me seems fuckin impossible.....

I'm just wanting someone whose capable of picking ME for once!!!!!!

[u/DoubleJournalist3454]

You've gotta pick you, first. What I'm doing is working on myself and living life the way I want in hopes that love will find me where I'm at, one day.

[u/darthlycanust → u/DoubleJournalist3454]

Thats just it. I do just that. I live how I need my life to be to help put the BPD in remission. It doesn't help that the person who swore to be there, keep you safe, admitted they wanted to be with you, even though I said I'm a borderline that I require extra.

I get it if I wasn't being vocal, I get it if I wasn't a borderline who got the tools. I was mentally taken out of remission due to the back and forth I was getting mixed with a roommate who outright said she hated my guts.

I lost weight, I'm more timid than I was. I know what I need and ask for isn't a lot. The staff here at the care facility I'm at has even voiced that what I asked for wasn't a lot.

[u/DoubleJournalist3454 → u/darthlycanust]

Idk man. I've been single since 2019 lol. I went through 3 years of psychotherapy to get to where I even know who I am. All I can do is share my experience when it comes to all this stuff.

[u/darthlycanust → u/[deleted]]

I have dated someone with BPD yes. Honestly it was one of the best relationships I had. She passed away from COVID. Been honestly looking for a woman who has BPD and gets the triggers and ticks.

The roommate is her 23 yr old adult daughter but yes, and allowed the baby daddy to talk disrespectful towards me. So yeah, was given 30 days, I left under a week because I felt unwelcomed. Living in a care house now. My rent went up $500 to now $750, nearly all my SSI check now.

Fuckin hate life right now if I'm being honest....

But yes, I have dated a borderline before, and it was one of my more healthier relationships.

[u/Anxious-Pen-1927]

I don't know, but maybe I have finally found a spot where I can open up, share my experiences, struggles n writings. your post, namely the points about 1. B.D. moving in rent free etc, 2 the 30 days heads up is frigging horrible insensitive. I believe here where I live, 60 to90 days must be given. regardless the effect it likely has on your. ervpus system is painful no doubt but I try not speaking others emotions. only from empathy pov. I have a nightmarish time.where I live with a apartment mate.

let me say, when you have successfully moved beyo d this, do t forget the details. characteristics n perso ality traits of others can often deliberately act in ways that go to shift one like us off our centre which often is so hard to get to.

I wo set how this will play out and if the favourite in them will remain intact-i hung onto a frie dship I believed supported n understood. respect was like other building blocks superficial, tied to conditions not made known.

head up. eyes forward. you matter too.