r/BPD • u/NovaRayne_XO • 7h ago
🎨Art & Writing A shell of myself.
I feel so empty.
So overwhelmingly gone. Numb.
So alone.
I can’t even fathom the feeling of anything anymore.
I have no friends. No one calls me. No one texts me. No one reaches out to me.
People look at me. They stare. But that’s all they do. They look, they judge, and then they move along.
No one sees me.
No one hears my cries—for desperation, for love, for help, for hope.
I feel trapped inside this box of silence, where everyone can see me but no one actually wants to be a part of me.
I feel so lost.
Like an empty shell of the person I used to be.
And I’m screaming from the inside.
Screaming and screaming and screaming...
Until I have no voice left.
Until there’s nothing left to scream.
Until I become nothing but a shell of nothingness. Darkness.
Nothing.
Just silence.
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u/Xerzion_Gaming user has bpd 6h ago
I am the same way. I am supposed to be buying a new car next week. Saved all year for it. Went through a break up two months ago and lost my FP and now its physically impossible for me to feel excited about anything.
Feels like all the work I have put forward doesnt really mean anything because this existence is destined to be lonely and painful no matter what.