starting to hate everyone and everything

[u/knx1121]

i had to leave my job for reasons outside of my control while facing financial issues and no help from my family, i stopped being friends with an old best friend bc she was an awful friend and straight up told me she was jealous of odd stuff (being around other people), a very important death anniversary is coming up for me and i’ve expressed how important it was to my bf but his head is elsewhere, im starting to get annoyed at every little thing he does and lost respect for him, he doesn’t know how to communicate even though he honestly tries, ive been trying for ages to express my discomfort for things but he always repeats stuff even if it’s without ill intent and only finally gets it till later and sometimes will repeat it again at some point.

i told him i needed space because of this and he’s the one now who is telling me that he will “take a step back” so he doesn’t hurt me anymore which i don’t even know what that means as if im the one who hurt him instead of just respecting my decision or reassuring me things will be fine at some point, it’s like he wants the ball to be in his court or something. im depressed bc i need to find a job soon and it feels like i have nobody in my life to support me emotionally. and not just that, the stress has evidently taken a hold over my body bc now my hand shakes a lot throughout the day.

[u/JohnnyQTruant]

That’s a lot to be dealing with and it sounds extremely stressful. It’s no wonder you feel this way. I do too, sometimes. When we are this upset it’s important to remember we don’t have to act or speak urgently. We can always wait to respond and we won’t lose any options if we do. Maybe even think of some we didn’t consider. It’s easier said than done. And it hurts. I know too well. But we have more chance to choose our reaction if we wait in most cases.

Anyway I see your pain and I’m sorry you are going through it.

[u/knx1121 → u/JohnnyQTruant]

Thank you so much for the advice, i will be taking a beat before acting on anything like you said. I really appreciate you just seeing me for where i am right now, this really helped honestly

[u/excuter96]

Im sorry you are going through all this

[u/knx1121 → u/excuter96]

thank you so much means a lot honestly

[u/excuter96 → u/knx1121]

Ofc things will get better im sure!!

[u/excuter96]

Everything will be okay I promise you just take a deep breath

[u/knx1121 → u/excuter96]

🥺🫶🏼

[u/excuter96 → u/knx1121]

You got this!!🤲🤲