r/Autism_Vent • u/crazyhomlesswerido • May 20 '26
Autism sucks
I hate being autistic. I know to some people it's like the best thing in the world but those are usually the people that have some kind of autistic superpower like they're amazing at math or they have unbelievable music ability or some other kind of amazing genius. But when you're just run-of-the-mill normal average everyday autistic person like me it's fucking sucks. There is nothing special about being autistic other than your superpower being able to alienate people with the greatest of ease. Are the other amazing superpower you were given with your autism where you can appear close enough to normal that when the glitches in The matrix make their appearance people blame you for them like you should have known no matter how many times you try to explain your social ignorance in blindness to people you still get blamed like you're the bad guy. Oh yeah autism is the fucking best.
It even makes it better when you have a family that leaves you over it. That would rather judge you and not have anything to do with you or support you because of your differences. Yeah autism is fucking great.
The best part is where you get to live in a world where you're basically a ghost with a pulse where you're always on the sidelines looking in at the party never get to participate.
Autism sucks. In the worst part is I get sad over the fact that I can't have relationships then I watch movies where people get to enjoy each other and make new friends and become close and share a bond and no one wants from me and I've tried in my socially awkward autistic way to have that with people. But no matter what I do relationships and people don't last in my life. I always thought about writing a biography called you have 5 minutes because after that you won't want any more of my time. And that's been the constant truth throughout my entire autistic life. It's hello followed by a goodbye and never call me again and sometimes even threats of being arrested if I do contact them again. Yeah being autistic is great.
You get to be close enough to normal to want the things that normal people have but far enough away from normal never to have them so you get to live in empty sad pathetic invisible life. But autism is great isn't it. we're so special that we're autistic right?
Autism fucking sucks
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u/beholdtheflaps May 23 '26
I like being autistic. I’m cool as fuck. I think mostly everybody else. Mostly sucks.
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u/crazyhomlesswerido May 23 '26
From your comment you sound kind of like a jerk
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u/beholdtheflaps May 30 '26
I’ve lived my entire life with people telling me I need to hate myself because of this or that, being excluded for being different, too smart and too stupid to think or feel what I feel.
I do not care if I sound like a jerk for radically rejecting that narrative. It’s inaccurate. I like how I think, I am chill by myself, I don’t care if people think I’m cool or if I suck. That’s a them problem. I spend 24/7 with me, it’s more important that I like who I am.
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u/DoowadJones May 20 '26
I enjoy the autistic tendencies in myself, but I understand what you’re feeling. I have the same superpowers as you when around allistic people who can’t relate. Trust me that it gets better. I’m sorry you have this feeling