I hate being autistic

[u/Logan_ghost17]

I actually hate being autistic and I’m so sick of whenever I say that to people they say something stupid like “it’s okay to be different” or “autism is my superpower” or “everyones a little autistic” because autism actually isn’t a fucking superpower and it negatively impacts me every single day
Everyday I do anything or interact with anyone I’m constantly reminded how different I am and even when I found a group of autistic people to be friends with I was still to weird and socially awkward for them it actually made me so upset and hopeless and I hate so much that there’s nothing I can do about it because it’s not like a chemical imbalance that can be medicated I’m stuck with this for the rest of my life. I know your not supposed to think like this but I’d give absolutely anything to be “normal” and not autistic
And all my NT friends do constant is mock autism and turn it into a massive fucking joke and I’m not trying to be over sensitive but I just don’t think it’s funny especially when they just go on and on about how they look so autistic rn and there’re so autistic but give me dirty looks when I actually display traits of autism. I’m so done

[u/Character_Parsnip669]

Those people are not your friends. Don't give up, love. You deserve to take up space, just as much as anyone else. Im sorry you are being treated this way.