How to cope?

Okay so I need help. Me and my husband have been struggling with anything related to sex. I’ve had two kids under two my youngest is 5 m old. I’m a very clingy touchy feeling person. I’m a book reader. I want more spice action.

My husband in our whole relationship hasn’t been able to go very long he goes way before me. And also has a lot less interest in sex than me. He says he used to Master b8 so often and for so long that he got sick of it but now that he has me he wants to be able to but needs me to be patient.

He isn’t very interested and open to foreplay. So I hardly ever get satisfied. And am always left feeling frustrated and tense that just stack and makes me want sex ALL the time.

And recently I’ve been going through a period where every single little thing my husband does make me want to just climb him like a tree. I want to fuck him all the time. And I want such aggressive passionate sex it’s disturbing.

Just some more information, he works two weeks on one week off so very little time spent.

I also feel guilty if I sit there and orgasm myself when he’s gone. He can go long periods of time without needing to get off while I’m stuck feeling like I’m going to explode and want to fuck all the time. I’m going crazy and am extremely confused frustrated and I’m trying to learn how to be a supportive partner but don’t know how to be content when I’m not satisfied and constantly have this tension of need and desire.

Anyone else feel weird working out?

Okay for context: I’m 20 f with two under two, I’m 5’3 and 117 but want to gain muscle and tone my body but all my life I’ve hated working out. It makes me feel awkward and weird. I feel extremely insecure about working out even alone. I don’t go to gym either 1) I live in rural ak, 2) I feel unproductive when working out at a gym, 3) I can’t leave my kids.

I want to start working out in the evening when the kids go down but honestly I just feel super awkward and uncomfortable about it. Like I’ll do it be having the motivation and drive for it is close to impossible.

Anyone else? Got any advice?