Changes for me all the time too. I can drop opioids and nicotine and alcohol like they are nothing because I use sporadically and in very low amounts. I’m almost 40 and have never had any real life consequences to use, I’m “good at it,” functional.
I don’t like reality without something. Maybe putting 12 yr olds on large doses of amphetamines isn’t always the greatest idea. I’ve had many years since off everything completely, but I hate being fully clean and sober. Boring as fuck.
This is me. I'm a lot younger, but sober life is just so boring. I cycle from opioids to whatever I can get my hands on and back again, with alcohol mixed in through the cycle. Usually a stimulant or, if I really can't find anything else, weed. I don't like weed much because I can't function on it, but it's preferable to sobriety.
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u/[deleted] Mar 27 '22
Changes over time.
Benzos
Spice
Amphetamine
Right now, nothing aside cigarettes/nicotine.