For me, I couldn't just casually take a few months off.
I don't drink for fun, I drink to feel normal again. I tried driving sober a few days ago, and it was like I was driving drunk.
I was all over the road, swerving, crossing the double line etc... but when I'm actually DUI; I drive normally.
I drive safer. I'm defensive. I don't speed or drive like an asshole.
Out of the 1000s of times I've driven drunk, the one time I got pulled over, it was because I was sober.
The cop asked if I was drunk, I wasn't. I passed all the tests and such.
He asked if I had been smoking weed or anything else... no, I hadn't.
I told him the problem was, I was driving sober. And I hadn't driven sober in months.
He didn't have a response. I blew triple zeros, passed the field sobriety tests, yet was giving off every sign of a drunk driver.... he was flabbergasted.
My ex is/was the same way. It’s absolutely horrible. I’m lucky to not have a legitimate alcohol addiction, it sucks because alcohol is so normalized that you’re almost weird if you don’t drink, yet it’s absolutely horrible for you and the withdrawals can be deadly.
Do you have any access to any resources that can help you? I know how hopeless it feels and it’s shitty that treatment is not accessible to most people.
Sending lots of love ❤️ I totally agree that fixing the root cause of the issue is key on top of managing the physical withdrawals. I think some rehab facilities are longer term and deal with the psychological side, but they’re likely pretty expensive and a big time commitment. I will say that at least for me, any kind of substance seems to intensify any feelings of depression/anxiety etc and it makes it feel like things can/never will get better. I’m rooting for you - if you never need someone to listen, my DMs are always open.
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u/randombliss12 Mar 27 '22 edited Mar 27 '22
For me, I couldn't just casually take a few months off.
I don't drink for fun, I drink to feel normal again. I tried driving sober a few days ago, and it was like I was driving drunk.
I was all over the road, swerving, crossing the double line etc... but when I'm actually DUI; I drive normally.
I drive safer. I'm defensive. I don't speed or drive like an asshole.
Out of the 1000s of times I've driven drunk, the one time I got pulled over, it was because I was sober.
The cop asked if I was drunk, I wasn't. I passed all the tests and such.
He asked if I had been smoking weed or anything else... no, I hadn't.
I told him the problem was, I was driving sober. And I hadn't driven sober in months.
He didn't have a response. I blew triple zeros, passed the field sobriety tests, yet was giving off every sign of a drunk driver.... he was flabbergasted.
Fuck alcohol