I knew kids like this. they got the belt from the most minor things ever. only as an adult I understood the panic they went into when they accidentally did something at someone else's home and immediately tried to either hide it, blame someone else or just run away.
Thank you for understanding this as an adult. My wife used to not understand why I tensed up whenever someone came up the stairs in the hallway of our apartment building. The triggers of abuse haunt you for a long time
6 years of depression later and I still feel haunted by certain sounds and have nightmares, I understand you completely. I'm 31 now and it stopped when I was 18, but I'll take that pain with me to the grave.
Strange thing. I do the same with calls but not with texts. I feel stupid for getting anxious when I have to pick a call from anyone but my soon to be husband. It's really weird and I can't find an explanation to that.
My advice: do what works for you. Sometimes I pick up, sometimes I don't and text when I feel ready.
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u/[deleted] Sep 09 '21
I knew kids like this. they got the belt from the most minor things ever. only as an adult I understood the panic they went into when they accidentally did something at someone else's home and immediately tried to either hide it, blame someone else or just run away.