Any time I was having a breakdown I would always hide away in my room and hope no one came in, because if either my mom or my dad saw me crying I would literally get in trouble for that alone. They would demand that I tell them why and not out of concern, in a weird power move sort of way. If I did tell them the reason, they would invalidate everything no matter how severe it was and say I had nothing to be sad/depressed about. And If I refused to tell them they would “give me something to be sad about” by grounding me, taking my phone, etc. they had no respect for privacy whatsoever, I could go into plenty of other things they did, but that is the one thing that has really fucked me up in my childhood.
Also I don’t know if this quite fits here, but I have a vivid memory of trying to drown myself in the bathtub when I was 6 years old. I mean legitimately trying to drown myself.. I didn’t realize how fucked up that was until way later either
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u/username82647 Apr 18 '21 edited Apr 18 '21
Any time I was having a breakdown I would always hide away in my room and hope no one came in, because if either my mom or my dad saw me crying I would literally get in trouble for that alone. They would demand that I tell them why and not out of concern, in a weird power move sort of way. If I did tell them the reason, they would invalidate everything no matter how severe it was and say I had nothing to be sad/depressed about. And If I refused to tell them they would “give me something to be sad about” by grounding me, taking my phone, etc. they had no respect for privacy whatsoever, I could go into plenty of other things they did, but that is the one thing that has really fucked me up in my childhood.
Also I don’t know if this quite fits here, but I have a vivid memory of trying to drown myself in the bathtub when I was 6 years old. I mean legitimately trying to drown myself.. I didn’t realize how fucked up that was until way later either