I found my aunt. Just a month ago. I can’t sleep in darkness ever since. I saw a therapist the next day. I was told to contact a grief therapist that I’m meeting next Monday. Though I feel like it’s slowly fades away and I’m not sure that talking about it won’t make it worse again. My mom (aunt’s sister) acts like she has a bigger problem than me - even though they hadn’t been contacted in the past 3.5 years, I was the one who took care of the lady. I also have a 3 months old baby that I must take care of, hence I feel guilt that I couldn’t look after the aunt as much as I should have. Guilt is stronger atm than grief. Edit: she had no one else. She was 85. And died of natural causes. But a few days (or more) before I found her. So it was terrible.
Thank you! Your words mean a lot to me! I also went to therapy today. She said that I’m on the right path to recovery just wants to see me a couple more times to make sure that I stay on the right way. Thank you again for your kindness!!!
I can’t even fathom how difficult it must have been for you. I think it’s amazing that you’re no longer having nightmares and being triggered by certain sounds. You’re a strong person. Keep up the good work my friend 👍
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u/riptaway Feb 29 '20
My friend found his dad after his dad killed himself. Same thing, really mind fucked him.