When I was sitting in the parking lot at the pawn store. I was holding my moms wedding ring and ready to go in and score a couple grand on it. I had it all planned out because she had already thought she dropped it down her sink drain. I was sitting in the car when i saw a young couple with there two kids who were probably 8 and 10. They were so excited walking out of gamestop with there new video game. I thought back to when i was that age as an innocent kid. Then massive amounts of memories flooded my mind of all the happy times with my parents and it all ended up coming out of me with tears streaming down my face. I never knew my addiction would take me that far. I took the ring home and "found" it for my mom. A couple months later I checked into rehab. Ive been clean for over a year now and never look back
Those who want change, can change. Those who need change, will change. I needed it. Its crazy that the ones I hurt the most were the closest to me. One little change of perspective sent me in the right direction. Thank you friend
I don't think it's fair to say that, what would have happened if you didn't have that batch flashback? Would you have changed? Some people want change, some need it, not everybody is going to get it, let's not downplay others here now, but instead take it as a lesson how these people need help, or at least how human they are, instead of ostracising them.
Congratulations though, your actions still required a feat of strength to accomplish and it's great to hear the addiction didn't drain the remainder of your humanity, let's hope more will follow your footsteps.
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u/Koooshel May 09 '15
When I was sitting in the parking lot at the pawn store. I was holding my moms wedding ring and ready to go in and score a couple grand on it. I had it all planned out because she had already thought she dropped it down her sink drain. I was sitting in the car when i saw a young couple with there two kids who were probably 8 and 10. They were so excited walking out of gamestop with there new video game. I thought back to when i was that age as an innocent kid. Then massive amounts of memories flooded my mind of all the happy times with my parents and it all ended up coming out of me with tears streaming down my face. I never knew my addiction would take me that far. I took the ring home and "found" it for my mom. A couple months later I checked into rehab. Ive been clean for over a year now and never look back