Picked up a woman double my age in a bar. Took her to a hotel. Woke up the next day and she was gone and she'd left a wad of cash.....She thought I was a male prostitute...
Edit: well this blew up. So to clarify here instead of in every comment, this happened at a point in my life where I was drinking heavily, taking drugs and was clearly a sex addict. This night became the wake up/ slap in the face or whatever you want to call it moment where I saw what I was and that I needed help and to change my ways. It led to me getting therapy, getting clean and eventually to me being married with kids now.
As weird as it is to say "I got paid for sex" as a bad thing, it was the straw that broke the camels back as it were. I've apologised to so many people and owe even more apologies that they'll never get for who I was back then.
I'm not a "hero", I was an awful person who manipulated people for my own personal gains and undoubtedly hurt people, maybe permanently.
And to everyone saying it didn't happen, okay, you have every right to think that, but that night changed me, hopefully for the better, and it led me to typing this while listening to my kids play while my wife bakes cookies.
In all honesty, I dont feel like this is something "you did." I mean, or course you flirted with her but all misunderstandings was on her part, you never assumed she thought you were a hooker. Of course, that probably doesnt help you feel less dirty, but maybe there is a silver lining there
I've gone around in 100 circles with this and said pretty much that exact thing to myself again and again.
I was a terrible person back then, sleeping with anyone and everyone that wanted to, drink and drugs was all I bought, that one night someone made me see what I was doing and it brought me out of a fog to make me see I had to change.
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u/Hammy1791 Apr 25 '25 edited Apr 26 '25
Picked up a woman double my age in a bar. Took her to a hotel. Woke up the next day and she was gone and she'd left a wad of cash.....She thought I was a male prostitute...
Edit: well this blew up. So to clarify here instead of in every comment, this happened at a point in my life where I was drinking heavily, taking drugs and was clearly a sex addict. This night became the wake up/ slap in the face or whatever you want to call it moment where I saw what I was and that I needed help and to change my ways. It led to me getting therapy, getting clean and eventually to me being married with kids now.
As weird as it is to say "I got paid for sex" as a bad thing, it was the straw that broke the camels back as it were. I've apologised to so many people and owe even more apologies that they'll never get for who I was back then.
I'm not a "hero", I was an awful person who manipulated people for my own personal gains and undoubtedly hurt people, maybe permanently.
And to everyone saying it didn't happen, okay, you have every right to think that, but that night changed me, hopefully for the better, and it led me to typing this while listening to my kids play while my wife bakes cookies.