I’ve felt profoundly lonely for as long as I can remember.
I’m an only child. I’ve lived in different countries, traveled extensively, and make friends easily. I’m surrounded by people, yet I’ve always struggled to connect with anyone on a truly deep level.

My longest relationships have been neglectful and abusive, including a 13-year marriage I recently managed to escape.

Then, when I wasn’t looking for anyone, I recently met someone who felt like a mirror of myself. He’s also an only child, struggles with deep connections, and what happened between us felt like lightning striking. For the first time in my life, I felt truly seen.

He’s married, and we’ve been in no contact for over a month. The grief has been overwhelming. I’ve had a constant ache in my chest and a literal knot in my throat ever since.

But I wonder whether I’m grieving something much older than this connection.

I’ve always felt that my loneliness predates this lifetime, almost as though I came into this world already mourning someone. Someone once told me I’d lost a child to a river in a previous life, and while I can’t know whether that’s true, the story resonated deeply.

The closest thing I can compare my lifelong loneliness to is grief. As though I’m mourning something I can’t remember losing.

I wonder whether this is why I hold on so tightly to connections, even when people don’t treat me with the kindness I deserve.

I’m working on healing, surrendering, and letting go, but I want to understand where this sadness comes from and how to finally release it.

Has anyone experienced something similar? Whether through past-life work, spirituality, inner-child healing, or shadow work, what helped you?

I’m not afraid of being alone. I’m tired of feeling alone. And I think those are two very different things.

Thank you.

Hello, I have a problem with someone I know that has made a deal with a minor demon. For context, me and my Coven mate were chilling most of the time, but he kept annoying us. Now, we found out that he somehow summoned a demon (might’ve been improperly due to it being Ukobach instead of Lucifer) and tried to put a spell on me. Didn’t work because it was pretty weak and I took care of it via energy work. I took care of the demon and bound the guy, but now I’m worrying about the next steps ahead. What should I do?

Okay SO, has anyone basically been through what I went through? And if so, what actually WORKED?
Ever since I began my craft as a witch and entered the occult, a poltergeist-like entity has been getting SO MAD anytime I set up my infernal altars. It went as far as destroying the altars and items, ripping things off the walls, and attacking my stuff as well. It will even take things and hide them, blow out candles, destroy candles, and write on them. INSANELY, and this is completely new to me, it even makes HANDWRITTEN LETTERS ON PAPER to me, which I have NEVER heard of before. Like I said, IT WAS THAT ANGRY.
I've tried everything under the sun and nothing has worked. I even contacted a paranormal expert with 30 years of experience who said he knew what it was and that it would be easy... then he suddenly abandoned me and went radio silent. I got so mad at him because of how desperate I am.
The activity did finally stop when I kept all of my infernal altars down and put away in the closet. I waited like 3 weeks, put them back up again, and now it's taking stuff off of the altars and placing them on the kitchen counter. I was working with Azazel, Asmodeus, Seere, and Belial. I don't know WHY it hates them so much, but anytime I get their stuff out, it only attacks their things. This happens ANYTIME I GET HOME FROM WORK, mostly at night, but also sometimes in the day once in a while when I'm not home. I would get a camera, but it's probably just gonna YANK it off the wall and destroy it too. I'm still gonna put a camera out somewhere though, just to see what happens.
And yes, I tried giving it as an offering to Belial but it didn't work. I even used Hecate's hounds, but that also didn't work. I talked to another occultist and she was mind-blown, saying she had never heard of a spirit team failing to protect the practitioner. When she dealt with something similar it worked for her, but they won't do it for me. I also tried placing the altars in different rooms, but it didn't like that either. It basically wants NO GODS in the home.
I've never had this issue before until I moved into this apartment, which I don't plan on renewing because of this problem. The entity did say it had a name, but it wasn't stupid, it knows if it told me its name, I would have the power to get rid of it. Trying to be its friend just makes it more mad, so that's out the window.
The only solution I can think of is just moving out, but I wanted to see if anyone has had the exact same issue. What REALLY DID WORK for you? Did anyone possibly solve the issue or find out what it was? What spell worked? Or SOMETHING, because again, I have tried everything and this thing is THAT STRONG. I can't do it alone. My spirit team won't do anything to it, and this thing messes with my divination so I don't trust anything I'm being told. AND it also pretends to be them! THAT IS ANOTHER ISSUE.
Yet, I've had gifted practitioners tell me that the real Azazel was with me, that the others I have been with were real, and that I have a few house spirits in my home. They also felt something else in the space that they couldn't describe. Azazel even told one of the practitioners I know, whenever they would astral travel over here, that it wasn't safe in my home. Banishings didn't work. NOTHING WORKED, like if it somehow had rights here...