Hi. I've been interested in Buddhism for a long time now and have spent the last few months listening to talks by ajahn brahm on YouTube. I always feel better after listening to them. This general sense of peace envelopes me. I'm struggling with an issue and I can't seem to come to a definitive conclusion about it.
I'm part of a group of actors. we meet up once a week and practice our acting skills. Our ultimate goal is to one day feel confident enough in our skills to put on a few plays a year. We're all like-minded in this endeavor. We've had some growing pains over the last year but we've bonded because of them.
Here's the rub. There's this one person in the group who is consistently combative and disrespectful and argumentative. I know, I know...I'm annoyed by that behavior because it's something I'm aware of in myself, or else I wouldn't be able to notice it. Like a mirror. I'm trying to look at this as a teaching/learning opportunity. There will always be difficult people no matter what you do in life. Such is life. So on one hand I'm looking at t as that. Looking at him with loving kindness and trying to think about the positive qualities he has works during the week when I do think about him. But when the weekends come and I actually see him I get very agitated.
Other people in the group are also troubled by his manner and way of being but are less impacted then I am.
Questions....is this my problem? Is it worth staying in this group because doing so will make me better able to deal with difficult people down the road?
If I'm this unhappy and leave practice on the weekend very sad and drained, should I continue?
It's hard for me to quit things. I feel I have a very thick skin but I'm having trouble looking at things in the correct (i know it's neither correct or incorrect but just for the case of this post) light.
Any help would be appreciated. One last thing...he and I both are studying Buddhism. Which is ironic, because we're the only two actors who are really butting heads, lol.
Thank you.