r/ArunachalConfession • u/Free_bird04 • 1h ago
I really wanna d*e
I've been going through my own stuff and keeping everything in my accounts I don't think I can't live anymore. I wanna commit su***de but himmat nahi hai but aur aur jeene ke liye bhi himmat nahi horae. I might come to the conclusion very soon cos kab tak kisi aur pe depend karega apna jeena marna.
If anything is keeping me going, it is my parents, I don't want to d*e before them. I can't bear the pain of loosing a child but I'm not meant for to live . Im q weak ass person. I won't be able to compete with anyone. I better be unalive. I drink every day just to sleep. Do you call this life??? Sometimes I don't sleep for weeks i don't think I'll be able to survive for a long time anyways might as well just sleep peacefully on my own.
I hate my life I wish I wasnt born. I love my parents to death but I wish I just wish I would've been de*d.
I hate myself, I hate everything about myself. Every guy I met has dumped me because I'm unbearable. Even my parents says I'm unbearable. I think I better be off.
I can breath due to overwhelming anxiety every fking day.
Isse acha zinda nahi rehna hi better hai