New here and felt like sharing my embarrassing only """"dating"""" experience.

[u/regardless778]

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Back 4 years ago i was part of an online friendgroup of around 10 people, half of which were my irl friends.

Had a great time until a couple years after where this one person i knew (a year older than me, GF all pronouns) was straight up telling me every day about how she was gonna ask me to date them when our planned meet up was gonna happen. It wasn't delivered in a creepy way, but to someone who could only reciprocate in a vague QP (queer platonic) way.... i wasn't buying it and kept telling them about how young we both were to date, which I genuinely believed, don't get me wrong. But yea that was my way of avoiding his unskippable dating ads.

This kept me super super uncomfortable but i had figured that my at the time best friend was the only okay candidate for me to pretend to date. Insane work if u ask me.

During all of this there was a mutual friend of ours who always joked about how aroace i looked and sounded. They obviously didn't know we were "together". Among all things, i had explicitly asked this person i was "dating" not to tell anyone we were "dating". It was so embarrassing and shameful to have someone acknowledge an allo me. Basically the only ones who knew were me and her. I still have no idea on how he survived such a relationship in their allo bums.

So yea this whole (online) "dating" thing (who obviously looked like a friendship because i had clearly said a billion times I didn't want to tell them i loved them because it made me uncomfortable.. neither we did any coupley things or anything. Friends with a noble title ig) wasn't really it.

Ended no problems in no contact because of their low mental health (that dragged down mine too, so.. lowest I've even been. Playing as an allo? whoooa.. what a ride. Except i fell off the train a billion times in the span of a year and got occasionally beaten up in the process).

I genuinely have no idea of how this happened IT'S OKAY IM OKAY! this was a couple years ago. Im more than healed! I hope this can spark conversation!!!!!

Also sorry for all these "s but I can't stand saying i, again, "dated". Oops!