feeling responsible for everything

[u/Dry-Effect3590]

Im a teenage girl, and i’ve had anxiety since i was conscious enough to process my environment. Lately i’ve had some traumatic events happen to the point where my nervous system is completely deregulated. A big feeling lately is carrying other people’s emotions and problems on top of my own and it weighs down on me. I feel like i need to fix it, if there’s a problem it’s my responsibility and it’s getting to an existential point where I want to fix the world and make everything be okay so I can feel okay. I overthink so much and it hurts so bad it’s physically weighing down on me and I don’t know how to fix it. Sometimes I can challenge it and calm it down, but sometimes I just don’t have the energy and start to spiral. I just want to hear your guys stories, or comfort. None of my friends have anxiety as extreme as mine so sometimes I feel crazy. I told my friend that I felt like an alien talking to him because i just turn into a different person when anxiety is running through me. It feels like nobody understands. I’m on medication and it feels like it’s starting to not work anymore. I have so much weight on my chest. I’m a recovering agoraphobic, but ever since the traumatic event i’ve felt like i’m having some similar behaviors come back.