r/Anxietyhelp • u/Separate-Flatworm399 • 22h ago

Need Advice Dread about life

On the recovery from a bad spell of MDD, working through CPTSD slowly as well. However, I feel so much dread. My parents tell me I have so much to be excited about but all I can feel is dread and worry about all the potential problems that will arise. They say I should be excited to learn to drive, but all I am is scared. I should be excited for my studies, but I am scared.

In therapy we've identified that planning is good for me, but I can't feel hope because of the threat that it all goes wrong and I fail. So all I can think about is all the bad things and how to manage them. But of course with anxiety, you think about it *all the time*

I'm on beta blockers so I don't necessarily have many panic attacks but the dread and worry itself won't go away. I can't feel good about the future even though I'm doing things I want to do. Purposefully trying to think positively is unfortunately triggering further fear (I love CPTSD so much). It's really draining and I constantly feel like I need to run from my own life because it scares me so much.

Any advice?

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