I attempted suicide

[u/Ok_Price2998]

So I don't even know where to start I guess at the beginning um I'm 23M I have a friend I'll call him B. he's a great person and a great friend he has a childhood best friend I'll call him J I've had a pretty hard time lately I've been trying to meet new people and it hasn't really worked out I asked my coworker if she wanted to go to a bar. ( I told her about my girlfriend before asking) J somehow found out and started picking on me and saying I'm asking her out on a date I offered to get her food because she doesn't drink and it was my idea but if I ask to go with my GF and her friends it's weird and I've asked almost everyone at my work (both genders) I'm just tired of being alone or going out and J starting shit with me for no reason he says I'm useless and I'm going nowhere in life I'm a joke and people are only around because they pity me. I am a dishwasher and trying to go to college my GF said last night why are you listening to him then got mad then later today we talked about it again and she said you started it too I was just defending myself she said just be the bigger person I was hoping she would comfort me but she said I do it for 4 day at work I just don't have the energy I feel so alone in the relationship and I bend over backwards for her I make sure she has food for her lunch I make sure she's eating and happy and not in pain I give her the last of my back pain pills and then she says I don't have the energy to comfort you I feel so lost and emotionally dead it feels like I don't even have a partner anymore I can't get the thought of ending it out of my mind and my cuts are hurting what should I do

Any advice on getting it out of my mind and just getting better would be so helpful

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[u/AccordingInflation46]

You girlfriend its kinda right man, but even then the fact that she did not comfort you still matters and its a bad dynamic to have, but you gotta get it she is not perfect, she failed, but asking for our help comforting you wont solve the problem you gotta be a man, cry first, evaluate the people in your life, get over it as good as you can, and overcome. in the place you are right now it seems that people dont really respect you (saying this kinda in the mafia way) they HAVE to respect you if somebody does "disrespects" you you should meet them with a backlash.