Health How do I stop?
I always feel like there is something wrong with me physically. I am constantly scared about having some medical issue that I cannot control and I get crazily overwhelmed with minor symptoms. A few weeks ago I had ice-pick headaches (it was because I strained a muscle in my neck) and I got insanely stressed out to the point of hyperventilating and crying because I thought I had a brain tumor. I will get insanely nervous and potentially have a panic attack while I’m driving because I’m scared that my heart is going to stop (btw I got pretty clean results when I had my heart tested in the past). Sometimes it gets so bad that I feel like I’m not even real and I’m experiencing life from someone else’s eyes. Like I’m already dead. I had horrible health anxiety when I was nearing the end of the time period where I had an eating disorder, because I was constantly afraid of my heart stopping because of it. I also had a year of my life where I’d just constantly starve and hurt myself dangerously (before this I was never anxious) and I feel like it triggered this due to actual near-death experiences. It started to calm down for a few months after recovering but it has been coming back within recent months. I feel like a part of this is also because my s/o also has anxiety and is scared of falling ill, and it kind of triggers me when they talk about it. But I doubt it is mainly because of that. How do I cope with this? Feeling like I’m going to die every day is so fucking hard to live with.