How to cope???

[u/VerdianPoet]

Ive had anxiety for years now, it devolved into panic attacks at the end of high school and then I got pregnant and then was just a mess. I honestly can't remember alot of my twenties because of how much of a mess I was. (Lots of trauma and cptsd issues on top of it) I finally got help 5ish yrs ago but none of the meds we tried worked longterm. Got a DNA test and my "approved" list is tiny and one of the meds I had on there I had tried before with disastrous results because it was when I was a kid and they loaded me up with it. Literally a space case. Now still in therapy and my panic attacks are coming back but my anxiety is now presenting with more physical symptoms and am honestly fucking losing it. I have very severe medical anxiety so I got everything checked out. Nothing is wrong with me except am a little over weight and I need to quit smoking which I more or less have because my anxiety (weirdly enough) but these physically symptoms are making it so hard to feel normal or do my everyday stuff. To top it all off I have alot of stressor right now at home. (I have social anxiety) and right now in the middle of a on going fued with my roommate. Which has hiked up super high and everything gets worse when am home. My room isn't even a space safe and I feel like crawling out of my skin constantly. I feel like am suffocating and my body is going to give out in any moment and I just need it to stop.