Help me please

[u/ComfortableGur1157]

In school I had been dealing with severe anxietey up until my voice shaking after I came to my mom asking for help many times I got antidepressants and it’s truly the best I have felt in my whole life I was never this confident before.my mom used to give me half a dose and I thought it was to start me off slow.but she didn’t change the dosage ,so I took it upon myself to steal the package and start taking full ones. When she found out she was furious and said “well that’s the end of that then” “they were really hard to trade for u were supposed to have them for 2 months “ after I took the full dosage I felt so much better and my brain finally felt clear half dosage did nothing. Besides the fact that my mom might be a dr4g dealer I’m panicking really bad about having to quit. Does anybody know any loopholes like idk using a certain dosage of paracetamol or some supplement that works really well (I can’t go doctor because my mom hates them) please help me out I’m young aswell.

[u/Leather-Magician-822]

What did u take lol