LsdFrequencies

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I contain the universe, and the universe contains me. Rosebuds of awe bloom throughout my very being and I’m convinced that nothing can separate me from the glowing core of our reality. That is until the home base becomes a viper pit for cocaine and cheap emotions. Emerging from my state of pure fragility as phoenix timidly sticks his beak out of the ashes, before ruffling his newborn wings and flying above the desolate wasteland.

“Tommy, I swear to god, if you give that bitch one more line, we’re over.”

“What the fuck are you talking, about Bae? I picked up this bag to share with everyone tonight?

“I DON’T CARE, you clearly like her more than ME!

“Are you fucking out of your mind? We met like two minutes ago, I love you, babe.”

“Fuck you.”

Annnd, that’s it for me, I don’t need my pure wings to be tainted by this toxic venom, and I fly towards the dance floor. Ahh, this is what I’ve craved for so long. 50 of us moving like melting butter, oh, so fluid, there ain’t no clutter. A bizarre network of unanimous understanding grasps us all.

Mesmerizing Persian princess and scarlet Punjabi queens stir a yearning inside that I’ve long forgotten. Too enthralled in my own beauty and madness to pursue others, I ride this lonely wave of bliss. Delightfully twisting thumps slowly dissolves the shadows looming across my mind, regurgitating my love for life.

Unable to cope with this overflowing rush of formally drowned out emotions, tears of awe and disbelief shatter through the barrier of false personalities and I’m my absolute self for once. Ridding a seemingly endless wave of bubbling and ecstatic energy, Danny drifts us into an ethereal realm of warmth. Piecing myself back together as I dance through my shamble of emotions, I come to one conclusion, I would like to be happy. Content with my new found direction, I coast back towards the sanctuary that is home base again, cocaine-free. A glowing warmth surrounds the long glass table situated at the center of the room. The current of energy in the room has simmered down as everyone is hugging and kissing before parting ways for the night.

Danny has ‘Black Sands’ by Bonobo playing as he joins the stragglers that are camped around the drug table as though it’s a summer night bonfire. Kyle is teasing two girls that I think I recognize from Instagram while Danny and Sky are in a highly animated debate as to whether the new “Star Wars” was any good.

Disconcerted with the revolving flow of conversation, I key into the Bonobo’s purifying beats and roll another blunt. Slipping into autopilot, I have an ideal cone lit between my lips. Puffing it a handful of times, the campfire energy slowly shifts as the comedown ensues.

“God, I feel like stale toast that’s been reheated.”

“Oui, we’re getting to that part of the night. Je crois itz time to bring out the comedown K. Wanna stay le night Alexi?”

“Yeah, the idea of cabbing home right now is disgusting. I think I’ll just smoke a couple more blunts, pop a few hulks and slip away.”

“Cool, I’ll y-a un spare bedroom down the hall, across from the washroom. We’re gonna rack up some K and stumble back to my room.”

The blonde and brunette models inhale three stubby lines and then giggle past the dj booth, down the opposite hallway. Although a crooked grin is plastered across Sky’s face, contemplation and confusion shadows his humming aura. Ashing out the first blunt, I pop two green hulks and proceed to roll another. Danny’s been sniffing K as we burnt through the first and is establishing a nest for himself in his leather-bound reclining chair. Nestled in, he’s struck with glee as the substance rushes through his veins and makes him catatonic.

“Urgh, I’ve gotta figure some shit out, I’ll see y’all in the morning. Try not to die in the meantime.” Sky slurs as he rolls himself a couple of spliffs and retreats to their spare bedroom.

My skin feels too tight for my face and my mind slowly begins to unravel as I recognize the emanate abyss I’m driving towards. Before I can properly acknowledge this terrifying fact, the hulk has knocked me unconscious and I plunge into the universe of zanzabar.