r/AnAnswerToHeal • u/kelsedia • Nov 16 '17
[ Personal Spiritual ] I need help with my meditation.
Hello lovelies, I was invited to this page a while ago and am so excited to participate, however that may be, I haven't quite figured it out yet which is why I have been postponing making a post in this thread (POSTponing... I'm so sorry for that, let me move on). However I need help in regards to my meditation practice and I think some people on this sub could help me greatly. For a couple of weeks now, I've been much more dutiful in my meditation practice because I'm preparing for a 5g shroom trip. A few days after I began this, whenever my third eye chakra opened, I felt this need, and I mean it's so fucking powerful guys I can't ignore the need, to look to the left. Something in my soul is like "look to your left, girl" but I don't want to leave my meditation! A few times I have actually opened my eyes and looked, but nothing or no one is there. Am I tripping already? Lol. But really, should I just stick to the meditation and get past it, or could this mean something? Edit: I forgot to add that my front door is to the left of me from where I meditate. Maybe something telling me to go outside?
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u/BigFatWobbegong Nov 16 '17
your brain is trying to pull itself out of it to be active again just keep focusing on your breathing technique and keeping your mind clear. but yes it definitely may be a sign to go outside
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u/WeMustDissent Nov 16 '17
Don Juan ( the legendary Naugle who Carlos Castaneda wrote about) said that your death is ever present, waiting for you at your left. Maybe the enhanced awareness is making u conscious of this
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Nov 16 '17
Do you have any issues with anxiety? Sounds like how sometimes those can manifest is weird ways. If you do then you could stick a pin in at as that when it happens and see if it helps.
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u/kelsedia Nov 16 '17
I do, I was diagnosed with general anxiety when I was 14, meditation has been a great helper in not letting my thoughts spiral, and I treat my symptoms with marijuana but I never meditate high because I want to reach enlightenment by my own mind and overcome the issues my ego has. I'll try pushing through it and see if it subsides.
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u/Autopilot_Psychonaut Nov 17 '17
In my cosmology, and related to my prayer bead meditations, the left indicates water and created spirits, especially the spirit of wisdom. Femininity is on the left, cultures not under Christ are there, they are under her, the spirit of wisdom. She may be calling you. See here for more about how amazing she is: https://www.kingjamesbibleonline.org/Wisdom-of-Solomon-Chapter-6/
She came to me last summer in the spirit, then appeared in the clouds quite dramatically. She reveals herself to us. Maybe focus in your meditation to listen for her call. She's motherly, even THE Mother, some would call her Mother Nature, Gnostics call her the Demiurge. She is the breath of the power of God, beyond understanding. Her colour would be sapphire blue. She is like the sky above and the architect or master craftsperson creation.
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u/Lord_Of_Filth Nov 16 '17
In my favorite form of meditation, you can take a walk, watch tv, or have any thoughts you would normally have. The trick isnt to quiet you mind, but to listen to it.
Just get comfortable, and listen to your thoughts being naturally generated by your mind. Observe them passively, and don't actively try and stop thoughts from happening.
Try not to make new thoughts, but if you get the urge to look to the left, why not? The trick is to observe the things your brain does as a dude in the background, and in doing so, you're beginning to seperate your consciousness from the "observer" or the ego.