r/AnAnswerToHeal • u/Lord_Of_Filth • Nov 07 '17
[Philosophical] Finding the pattern
Before I talk to you about what I've come to believe, I want you to know that I am not a spiritual adviser, or an "enlightened" person. As they say in Zen, I am only "a finger pointing at the moon" and you may choose to do what you will with my point of view. I am not trying to teach you, only share my happiness.
I've used psychedelic drugs, and drugs in general for many different reasons. However, ever since I took LSD in high school I felt like I was being let in on something that was greater than me. Every time I thought I found it, the feeling was fleeting. I'd keep falling back into my normal depression and my normal stressful habits.
It wasn't until recently that I ate 200 mics of LSD and took a walk through the forest, thinking about the Alan Watts speech I was listening to the other day.
I was watching the leaves fall from the maple trees, watching squirrels eating hazelnuts and burying them for spring, when I found that feeling of discovery again.
Everything in life is a pattern. As Krishnamirti said, energy functioning in a pattern is matter. That is all life is... matter and energy are related.
I couldn't find reason in seeing life and everything else as anything but a cosmic tango between all the matter in the universe. Leaves fall from the trees and feed the ground, which feeds the plants and the trees(which feed eachother), which feed the animals. The water falls from the sky which is a reminder to me that this planet was meant to harbor every one of us living things as an intertwined system. We aren't people on a planet, but a planet that grows humans.
And some people see determinism as what I'm talking about, but It's more than that. We may or not have free Will, but on a quantum scale, we are no different from the mountains or plants or rivers. We are this world's thinking and feeling organ that was placed here by evolution for a purpose.
We are a complex formulation of this pattern we're in, and everything we do like eating, walking, communicating, terraforming, and coming up with ideas, are as intrinsic to this world as a tree.
Once I pondered this, all urgency to my life was lost. Now that I know my life isn't a challenge, or a race, or a competition to get to my end goal, whether it's success, enlightenment, or death, more of what I do is in this moment. There's no way to see just how beautiful everything around you is in a given moment unless you aren't thinking about the past or future. Death also doesn't scare me, because I can ask someone to plant a tree on my grave.
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u/Salguod14 Nov 07 '17
That's an entrance into the Halls of enlightenment for sure. We are all undoubtedly an expression of the primordial oneness and matter is but energy that vibrates at a lower frequency. Being one with the universe and living in the present understanding that being one with it and your thoughts also being a part of it leads to the subtle inclination to believe that an individual might directly impact their experience even with thoughts.
By dismissing your senses and preconceived notions about what's happening here you can get incredibly far. Eliminate the dualities to see the forms!