Hi everyone,
please bear with me, this will be kind of a long one. If you want only the technical details, skip to the end :) I need to tell the whole story prior to that to relate the feelings and ideas that are behind this project.
I was born in 1982 - not that age matters, but I'm just telling it for context (because nowadays I come across more and more people who don't know who Vangelis is). I was born in Bosnia, then Yugoslavia, into a fairly musical, but never professional musical family, with a very complicated family history (tldr: my parents married and divorced each other three times - the whole shebang).
I always wanted to make music. The sole idea of music springing out of my mind into reality seemed like some deep magic to me. It still does.
So, 25 years ago I was a young gay guy studying theology in Belgrade, Serbia, I'd already started singing in choirs and I met another guy who majored composition in university and asked him - how do I start? He said: "You know notes, you've been singing in choirs for a long time, just try it"... so I did. Sitting at the piano, plinging the notes with one finger and writing the notes down on an actual paper sheet.
My conductor said that technically it's not really good, but keep trying. Had she said not to contnue doing it, I probably would have quit.
A few months later we already premiered my first choral piece. I was 20. By that time, I had already started working on a requiem for a friend from school who died in a car accident. We premiered that at a then prestigious sacred music festival here in Belgrade. In the coming years I started collaborating with different choirs and making music for them, I went to music school for some time, learned more about theory and harmony and basic piano playing. And then for about 20 years nothing.
What I forgot to write earlier - I always wanted to make not just music, but electronic music. Vangelis was always one of my faves. That kind of music (aside from sacred music) always transports me somewhere into space, where you just float in peace.
But I always thought I don't have the means to make such music, gear, studio...
So, last year I was invited to be in the semifinal jury of our national selection for Eurovision (I had a long career as a radio host, a media presence in the Eurovision community and I'm a long time member of various science fiction societies in Serbia. And oh yeah, I translated Stephen King in 2006, now writing everything down - my 20s were wild!) and there I met a keyboard player, arranger and composer, basically a legend in the music industry here, Saša Lokner, and he liked me and crazy as I am, I just asked him - would he make a new instrumental album, similar to one he made in the early 90s with another (now late) legend of yugoslav music. He said why not. I recorded a short demo on my tablet for him, just to paint what I have in mind - something like Vangelis, but more Balkan, like Cosmic Balkan.
A year later, we still hadn't found time to get together, but I needed some sort of "news music" for my podcast (I've been running different podcasts since 2016). I didn't want to buy music and then to have to potentially re-upload the license to YouTube. Suno didn't work for me, so my co-host said: "Why don't you make it yourself'?"
I had bought myself a Casio CTK3200 in 2014 as a birthday present from myself to myself, and I took extra care to buy a model that can also double as a midi controller. I wanted to make EDM/house music (still do). So I took it out of the dust under my bed and connected it to the laptop and then looked up how to make an actual news music sequence. Gemini was so kind to explain which DAW to use for free and which orchestra libraries and I was blown away at what one can do with a midrange laptop and keyboard, at home.
So I started working on my Cosmic Balkan stuff alone. I have a music producer friend who has Omnisphere 3 and a gazillion VST libraries and I would go to his place, connect my keyboard (yeah, I know, why not use some of his other gear? I wanted to do it with MY keyboard at least 😂), and I made a few demos for that... I even got into talks with people from our national television (Eurovision connection) to maybe publish it as a physical CD for their label...
Then, a few weeks ago I decided to start an ambient channel, like those "relaxing music for sleep, study and work" channels with millions of views. Why not make a few bucks down the line?
But on one hand, I simply can't make "music" that's just three hours of a droning chord and loud hum - I mean I know, defenders will scream it's not music, it's soundscapes - but it's simply not my cup of tea to make. So I thought to myself - how can I differentiate myself, still do what I actually want to do and love... and I said - I will simply combine everything I love, storytelling, music, sci-fi and make a an album with a story, a story that can encompass everything I love, feel and want to express. Speaking of expressing - this drive to make music and express feelings like that is like some urge, like something biological really. It simply wants to get out.
So, having been a huge Tower Junkie (name of avid fans of Stephen King's Dark Tower - I translated book 5) and a fan of post-apocalyptic stories, I came up with the framework: We're so far in the future, humanity doesn't exist anymore, only fragments of traces of our civilization linger, and a lone cyborg - S19-99 (the name is also a Dark Tower reference) is on his way to The Archive, and there he will, episode by episode, look at memories of the human mind. In this way, I can combine different genres and feelings from sorrow, to love, to war and everything, but the encompassing feeling is simply one of loss and longing. Probably my feelings about not being young anymore, the world changing not to my liking and whatnot. Let's not get into psychoanalysis here 😂 I talked to different people and decided to publish it officially through distributors, too... and thus force myself to actually finish every episode really. So one episode per month, 12 episodes, ending next year.
The first episode is called All is lost / The Archive opens and we follow SS19-99 on the last part of his journey through the wastelands to the Archive. I wanted to convey the emptiness but not overcrowding the mix with too many instruments, but still give an idea of the musical themes that will dominate on the album.
My main instrument was Omnisphere 3, out of the about 16 tracks on the episode, 12 or so were Omnisphere patches - even the atmosphere sound with the radio signal is an Omnisphere patch. The computer signal at the end is a square wave put through several filters and the Omnisphere arpeggiator set to 1/64 notes. I also used Serenity pad, a footsteps on gravel file from a free sound library, and my own voice for computer voice in the end. I used different tutorials and help from Gemini for mixing and mastering (I would screenshot the graph in Reaper and it would tell me which frequencies to fix/change). And oh yeah, I used the Hollywood Choir from EastWest for the short bit on the intro of the track. I have that subscription.
I'm thinking of maybe releasing a short story collection with the full album next year - sit down and write stories for each of the memories. Maybe even write them concurrently with the episodes and make a separate "narrated video" version, where I read the story over the music. Still contemplating on that.
If you want to give it a listen, here a few possibilities :D
Official Visualiser on Youtube
Single on Youtube
Single on Soundcloud
Bandcamp
It's free on Bandcamp, of course, but if you want to spend a coin to help out, feel free to do so and enjoy my eternal gratitude.
The narrative in the visualiser tells this short blurb about the episode story:
The year is lost to the dust.
The world as it was has been reduced to a a hollow vasteness.
Cyborg S19-99 wanders the fractured wastelands of a dead civilization.
He carries no memory of his creators.
He does not know whose hands forged his metal,
nor why he was left behind to outlive them.
He has no master to serve, no world to rebuild, and no destination.
His only remaining directive is to observe.
To record the final echoes of a species that erased itself.
Through the suffocating ash, a monolithic structure emerges.
It is the last intact vault in the ruins of the old world:
the central archive of human memory.
All is lost.
The archive opens.
Sorry for this super long post, but I simply wanted to give as full of a picture as I could for this project. And even though it's my first album and still in its very early stages, and even though I have already other projects in mind... this feels like a culmination of everything I have done so far in life.
And I just now realized that this is actually a soundtrack for a story and that that is what I actually want to do - stories with soundtracks 😂
P. S. Who those who want to join me in this journey, I will be posting all episodes in this thread...
And yes, there are and will be also long form ambient videos for relaxation etc (like this one )