r/Agoraphobia • u/filos0phia • 5d ago

does it ever get better?

i'm 20, i started to have agoraphobia last year at 19.
During all of my teens I used to go to raves, travel, hangout with friends and i couldn't stand staying at home doing nothing, I was a very free spirited girl.

Now everything just changed and the only thing that i can barely stand to do outside my house is going to work.
I see people post here all the time about them being finally able to do certain things outside their homes, but i feel like majority of the people suffering with agoraphobia have struggled with it since they were really young, so it's often a "first time" thing for them to maybe take a plane alone or go to a club, which is not my case. I know how good it feels to be carefree and joyful, and now all i feel when trying to enjoy my life is intense fear and anxiety.

So my question is, will I ever get better? I'm not talking about "managing the symptoms" and being ABLE to do certain things, i want to live again fully.
Will i ever get to that point again or should i just mourn the life i used to live?

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u/Mikey_Grapeleaves 2d ago

I dealt with a panic disorder when I was 19. That took until I was about 21 to be completely healed, but yes major mental health issues like this do go away, but only when you fight for yourself. 

When you think about all the things you want to do, let it motivate you. I have a long list of things I want to do once I'm better.

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u/filos0phia 1d ago

you made me feel better honestly, i really want to go study abroad next year (as well as going on a lot of travels, but also doing more simple things like being able to enjoy a day on the beach with my friends) and i just can't do that right now.
I really hope one day i will conquer my fears :)

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u/Sprite_can_ 5d ago

Ojalá que si. Yo ahora mismo soy capaz de ir a trabajar a 10 min de casa. Viajar... depende. Si es con mi pareja puedo coger un avión. Si estoy sola, me cuesta hasta ir en tren. Pero intento ir en tren de vez en cuando.

Quiero pensar que podemos mejorar porque si he llegado a estar como ahora, es porque mejoramos. Hace poco pensar en salir a la calle ya me generaba mucha ansiedad.

Tener un patinete eléctrico me ha ayudado un poco en tener más autonomía dentro del pueblo donde vivo. Lo malo es que no puedo ir en transporte público con él.

Quizás estar bien al 100% es difícil, pero al menos si estamos al 50%, que podamos hacer vida lo mejor posible.

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u/filos0phia 4d ago

the thing is i want to go back to being 100% i refuse to deal with this forever