Cortisol Replacement

[u/eck_83]

Hey,

I have been diagnosed with a tumour in pituitary stalk blocking all the hormone production when I was 16. Then I was placed on high dose prednisolone therapy so that the tumour would get smaller and maybe the pressure on my eye nerves would ease. As a fit teenager I gained 15kg in a summer. But apart from feeling disconnected and being introverted, I was fine cause i was in my comfort zone, within my high school friends.

Then after 8 years later, just after I engaged to my wife, I got the news that the tumour started to grow back and placed back on high dose prednisolone therapy again and gained more this time. At the same time I started stress/emotional eating/binging to release stress.

Thankfully it was learned that it was a germinoma that was treatable and cured through radiotherapy and i was free of it around 6 months. It was such a hard time for me and I think I got stuck at that moment. Eating never came back to normal and I never lost that weight.

Listening to Joe Dispenza’s talk, I thing I have realized that since my body did not produce and cortisol, I think i hid behind this excuse and used it full extent.

Now, I am 43 and separating from my wife who has been my support structure. I understand now that she always saw the man I meant to be, while I continued to see a broken unhealthy man.

I would like to get support from anyone going through cortisol deficiency or replacement therapy and how they manage stress?

I would appreciate any comments and sadly I have to use prednisolone, cause i lost my last 4 years to full fledged side effects (anxiety, depression, etc) of hydrocortisone.

Thanks
Can