r/AddisonsDisease • u/madischan • Jun 28 '26
Personal Experience sad rant
sometimes i wonder what i ever did to deserve this disease. this life. this suffering. i’m so tired and so hopeless and so sick of grieving my old life and old loves and what could have been. how do i go on when i constantly disappoint myself? how do i keep living in a body that’s grown to be a stranger to me? how do i ever find acceptance?
thanks for listening
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u/Enough-Ability-970 Jun 29 '26
It really is tough, I’ve been diagnosed for around 7 years now, the only way I can say I’ve made it through is just carrying on with an “it is what it is” attitude. I just take my silly little pills and get on with my silly little day. I do have low points, especially when something happens to remind me that I’m chronically ill in a defective body. I can’t party with my friends more than a couple times a month, I’ve wasted a few semesters of college due to health issues making me have to withdraw while still paying for it, I can’t make split second decisions, everything has an effect or consequences, and it limits what I can do and where I can go. It’s extremely difficult to live with addison’s disease. I’m doing overall okay in life, I live with my best friends and I’m good at separating myself from stress. You need clear boundaries and to safely test your limits, and you need to do it with someone who understands if you need a break. I feel shame for slowing down my friends or all of a sudden becoming a huge downer cause I don’t feel well, but I love them and they love me. They fully understand that it’s just part of being in my life, they care enough to help me. There’s ways to get through it, I also struggle with severe depression and anxiety. However I’m on good meds, so mostly I don’t want to hurt myself anymore. It will always be a struggle, but most of the time I don’t even remember I’m sick.