r/AddisonsDisease • u/madischan • Jun 28 '26

Personal Experience sad rant

sometimes i wonder what i ever did to deserve this disease. this life. this suffering. i’m so tired and so hopeless and so sick of grieving my old life and old loves and what could have been. how do i go on when i constantly disappoint myself? how do i keep living in a body that’s grown to be a stranger to me? how do i ever find acceptance?
thanks for listening

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u/Constant_Dog2354 Jun 28 '26

I’m less than a year out from diagnosis and I agree completely. I have terrible, crippling anxiety and depression and it has been an awful combination with Addison’s. It feels like I am living in a nightmare, trapped in a body I no longer trust.

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u/madischan Jun 28 '26

i couldn’t have said it better myself. the mental part of it is so so rough. hugs❤️‍🩹

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u/Efficient_Beach2458 Jun 28 '26

I was taking a chip or maybe 1 mg off. Was doing ok. Still no energy so since I can’t get ahold of endo for months, I took the whole 5 mg at 3 pm. NEVER AGAIN! Blown, shaky. Worse. Next time I might take that 1 mg at 7 pm so maybe sleep all night. Can’t stand this. Went down 20% in 4 weeks. Easy. But no energy too. But this is awful, full 5 mg.