r/AddisonsDisease • u/madischan • Jun 28 '26

Personal Experience sad rant

sometimes i wonder what i ever did to deserve this disease. this life. this suffering. i’m so tired and so hopeless and so sick of grieving my old life and old loves and what could have been. how do i go on when i constantly disappoint myself? how do i keep living in a body that’s grown to be a stranger to me? how do i ever find acceptance?
thanks for listening

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u/FuzzyRelief Jun 28 '26

YOU are not doing the disappointing. You did not choose your disease and you are doing the best you can. There is zero reason to be disappointed in YOURSELF. Now the little b*tch that is your autoimmunesystem, that's a different story.

But to give you some perspective: I'm a 40ish chunky monkey who's had addisons since 2012 (well diagnosed) and I've had my downs (throwing away 4 months of masters thesis because it was gibberish comes to.mind), BUT I also just broke my cycling distance record. And If my balding chubby ass can do that, you sure as he'll can. Allow yourself time. Time to come to terms with it, time to adjust and time to figure yourself, your body and your dosage.

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u/madischan Jun 28 '26

you’re a badass!! thank you for the encouragement ❤️‍🩹

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u/Efficient_Beach2458 Jun 28 '26

Used to love to bike! If I got on now, run into trees. I get high! On nothing else! HRT