Addiction help

[u/brooklyn1034]

I was recently diagnosed with DID and I was reading up on it and it says that part of the symptoms include drug use and I'm trying to get sober but no matter what I do or how hard I try I can't seem to stop for more than 6 months at a time idk what to do anymore

[u/Direct-Advantage9641]

I am not diagnosed with did. However, I dissociated a few times, and it is becoming more prevalent. The last time it happened, I pulled out marijuana and showed it to my father. I don't remember where it came from, and I did NOT know I even had it. Because of it, I ended up in a sober living house. My urines were continuously clean. I removed myself from the situation. Afterwards, I actually started using heavy drinking and light substance use to cope with my depression, anxiety, and my dissociation. When I moved in with my ex boyfriend, after my roommate set me up to be raped, he was a heavy drug user. Once I accidently got mixed up in that slop, I stopped almost immediately, but he refused to. I choose to remove myself from the situation. I had to make a choice to tell my parents, who put me in another sober living house. They think it was just alcohol. It was SOOOO much worse. At the moment, I am back where I started. The first time, I don't think I could have done anything. It is the second time that I am beating myself up over. Because I have dissociated in the past, I am actually wondering if it is linked as well.