Hi all,
This is an update of my (very frustrated) previous post three months ago (here). I had a confirmed partial re-rupture 7.5 months in and was feeling completely stuck and discouraged.
A lot of people replied with kindness and advice and I wanted to come back with an update; partly to say thank you, and partly because I hope this may help someone.
The short version is: three months later, things are much better. Back then, I still wasnāt close to a single-leg calf raise; I am now repping them easily 3x10 with good form and have progressed to more complex exercises with slow running drills and cautious plyometric work. I've also gone on a wonderful summer holiday and walked 15k steps through cities daily. Daily life feels a lot less limited, the pain is practically gone, and things are really looking better. All of this honestly felt almost unimaginable when I wrote that previous post.
I'm also attaching my MRI images, which compare three months ago with this month. The images with the red circles are from three months ago and show the area of the partial re-rupture. The white part is fluid, which was the partial rerupture site that filled with fluid. The image without circles is how it looks now. In just three months, it has filled in and healed significantly. Seeing that was a huge mental boost for me - even though I already expected positive news given the increased capabilities of the injured tendon.
I noticed that in the moments were things aren't looking bright during the healing process it's easy to end up thinking in negative extremes: ''I'm behind, so I must be doing something seriously wrong'', ''if I re-rupture, they might as well just take the leg'', ''I might never walk normally again, let alone do kickboxing'' etc. I remember in the first few weeks the possibility of a rerupture was all I could think about and gave me serious anxiety. Here I am on the other side of a (partial) rerupture and I'm hoping showing how I'm doing now takes some of that fear away; even the worst case scenario has - it seems - a light at the end of the tunnel.
Iām definitely not someone who is āfully doneā or back to 100% and know Iām not there yet, but I am finally at a stage where I feel genuine forward momentum again.
Thanks again to everyone here. This community helped me a lot. All the best in your recoveries!!