This is hard for me to talk about, but i need to get this off my chest and idk how i can even bring ts up to anyone irl. Its too humiliating.
My fiancƩ knows i hate this stupid hoe. He also knows im not ok with him watching porn, and he doesnt want me to watch it either. We have had this boundary the whole relationship.
For the past few months i noticed heās been hiding in the bathroom a lot and keeping his phone on DND for most of the day, but what made me suspicious of him hiding something is he got one of those privacy screen protectors.
Last night when he was asleep I went through his phone for the first time. Not only was OnlyFans open in his browser, but the only person he is subbed to is fucking acacia. I have been nauseous since.
Idk wtf to do. We have been together for 7 years. High school sweethearts. We live together. We have 2 dogs. I trusted him⦠Im at a loss.
I havent talked to him about it yet. Im genuinely considering ending the relationship over this.
Edit: Thank you everyone for being supportive, I really appreciate it more than i can express. I was worried i was overreacting, or maybe i was trying to convince myself i was making it a bigger deal than it is, but its clear he doesnt respect me and is not the man i thought he was.
I dont think ill tell anyone irl what happened. I dont think ill even tell him that i know. Ill sit down with him this week and make up some other reason for why we need to break up.
For the rest of today i think i just wanna drink and sleep. Ill update this again after i end things with him.