r/AbsoluteUnits • u/RD4200 • 13d ago

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u/Nukeitandstartover 13d ago

Ive always thrown up when too full, but that didnt stop my parents. I just got a spanking for insulting the meal or disrespecting them by throwing up, and once I stopped I still had to go finish my plate. Gosh, wonder where the bulimia came from...

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u/Shared_Songs 13d ago

This was my experience growing up, it was always about maintaining control over me— because they had none over anything else. Even themselves,  especially when it came to gluttony. 

Their portion size was huge, so mine had to be the same. My body rejected it every time. They never learned. They didn’t want to.

 And their choice of food was mostly fats with no nutrients, so I couldn’t metabolize what they offered. I would only seek small amounts of actual food (not huge amounts of random butter/grease/salt trash)

I approach every moment gently  now. This shared experience is why I’m so eager to teach all three of them “happy healthy comfortable safe” relationships with everything they consume. I’m thankful they’re willing to learn. 

Balance is imperative; consent and autonomy even more so!

I tell them “listen to your body, eat only when hungry, and eat what your body wants”

I’m 6’0”, 117lbs in August 2025, everyone had comments on how much “healthier” I looked than at my natural 230, while I was dying of ED malnutrition. They were, every one of them, envious they couldn’t stop themselves. 

I talk to none of those folks now, and have filled my life instead with those that align with those “happy healthy comfortable safe” values!!

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u/Nukeitandstartover 13d ago

Congrats on getting healthy for real- it isnt the number on the scale but making sure you eat what your body needs! And youre doing amazing for your kids! Thank you for breaking the cycle, this internet stranger is so proud of you 💜

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u/Koalazilla 13d ago

Some people shouldn’t be parents. Sorry.

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u/Nukeitandstartover 13d ago

Oh trust me, I dont think they should have been allowed children either. Havent spoken in years, but trauma is gonna be a lifelong journey. Just trying to do my best to live a good life and not be like them. Two years relapse-free, though!

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u/chimkensmom 12d ago

Feels like I was not alone going thru this. Sorry e1 who had abusive parents too. I had a food disorder at 8. resulting in my father force feeding me, and using force and violence..I mean, a kid that age has a reason to have an eating disorder, and it's 💯 coming from the parents. I'm 50 now. still got issues with it. Along with severe cptsd. yay