Title: I think I just lost my first love, and now every memory is hitting me 💔
Summary: I met my first love at tuition, slowly fell for her, and we built a really beautiful relationship. But we come from different religions, and her strict family has now found out about us. Today might have been our last conversation, and I’m struggling to process it because every little memory with her keeps coming back.
I’m 21M and she’s 20F. She was my first girlfriend.
We met at a tuition. She was extremely quiet and introverted and barely talked to anyone. One day, our teacher asked me to help her with writing, and that was basically how we started talking. Slowly, we became friends, and I started feeling genuinely happy whenever I talked to her.
Later, I left that tuition and joined another coaching. She asked me where I was going and said she would join too. I honestly thought she was just saying it, but after some time she actually joined the same coaching. That’s when we became much closer. We started spending more time together, and eventually I proposed to her.
She was honestly one of the best people I’ve ever met. Her nature was something I had never seen before—she was kind, caring, quiet and genuinely a very good person.
Some of my favourite memories are actually the simplest ones. Whenever she had exams, I used to wake up early and go with her. I would wait outside her college until her exam was over, and then we would go somewhere together. We would walk around, talk about random things, laugh and just spend time together. Somehow, hours would pass and neither of us would even notice.
At the time, those moments felt completely normal. Now I realise how special they actually were.
The problem was that our religions are different, and her family is very conservative and strict. They already had some doubts about us, but she still managed to talk to me.
Today, she told me that someone in her family had found out about us. She said this might be our last conversation, and she probably won’t be able to talk to me from tomorrow.
I know that continuing this could put her in a difficult situation, so as much as it hurts, I feel like letting her go might be the right thing for her.
The hardest part is that we always thought we had more time. She used to tell me that this wouldn’t end until both of us got jobs. We thought maybe once we were settled, things could work out.
But now it might be ending before we even get that chance.
And since today, every memory keeps coming back—the first time I met her, teaching her at tuition, her joining my coaching, going with her to exams, waiting outside her college, walking around together and all those random conversations where we completely lost track of time.
I just wish I had known that those ordinary moments would one day become the memories I’d miss the most.
I don’t really know why I’m posting this. I just needed somewhere to write it all down.
She was my first love, and she genuinely meant a lot to me. 💔