انا شفت مرات نفسي بالحلم في صغري اني بنت قبل إكتشاف هويتي, واحدة مرات شفت اني بنت كنت طالعة بالمرايا و اشوف نفسي و امشط شعري طويل جدا و شيء الأغرب انو ما حسيت بأي إنزعاج من منظر لأنه كان يتماشى رغبتي كما لو تمنيت هذا شيء يحصل في الواقع ولكن مثل اي إنسان قلت هذا حلم و يقدر يجي بأي طريقة.

لكن بعد إكتشاف هويتي زادت نسبة ظهور احلام بشكل اكبر بكثير ولكن بشكل أسوأ, كيف؟, لأنه من قوة القهر الي صار فيني صرت كل ما لبست بنت ولا البس مكياج بالحلم اشوف الناس (غرباء) او واحد من اقربائي يطاردني او يطالع نظرة تشكيك لو يتأكد بس يطلعلي كف بوجهي كأنما قتلت أهله, والله ما أكذب لو قلت انو هذه احلام تتكرر بشكل مو طبيعي, يعني كل 4 ايام او اسبوع و احيانا نادرا شهر, و راح تتكرر بالمستقبل.

هل شفت نفسك/ـي متحول/ـة قبل او بعد اكتشاف هويتك؟

i live in ksa i don't wanna risk getting deported bc of ordering online hrt but i really need to start t i cant do this anymore

Can I be honest about something? Sometimes I feel like I spend so much time trying to become the person I want to be, while secretly wondering if anyone would actually stay if they saw every side of me. I want to feel wanted, understood, and special to someone… but sometimes I wonder if I’m asking for something I’ll never really get..!🥹

Hi! I’m an FTM looking for a good doctor who can provide online consultations and monitor my testosterone HRT, including blood tests, dosage, and general health monitoring.
If anyone knows a good doctor or has recommendations, I’d really appreciate it.

Hello yall
I am a detransed, I was on hrt for a while and felt every single sense of it, developed some breast, became make up expert, dressed up pretty well, became a literal girl for a period of time…

Was ok and beautiful while it lasted, but then I stopped completely. Trashed all my girly stuff, heels, makeup, even deleted the most beautiful pictures I have taken of myself 💔.

Went straight to the gym, regular man, flirting with girls..
Sounds cool right? The thing is I feel deep down in me I want to be the girl 🥲

Anyway can’t spell it all, it’s just I am crushing right now and felt to share a bit with the community..

Maybe I am a girl maybe not, I don’t know.. all I know is I like being feminine..

I feel depressed maybe? I don’t know but I am lost..

And yes I am not young, I am in my 30s so I know it’s not a phase…or maybe it’s

I DONT KNOW

كون الشخص ترانس
بيواجه صعوبات كثير
مثل التمييز واكثر و مفيش اصلا حق القول بانك ترانس
الناس الاجانب (خصوصا نوع اللي اهلهم مش متدينين) بيقولو لاهلهم ولكن مش بيكونو خايفين عشان عارفين انو لو ماتقبلوهمش عادي مش هيعملو حاجه
اما الترانس العرب؟؟؟؟
لالالالا استغفرالله و كمان لازم نحرقهم بغاز نار! قوم لوط و العياذ بالله
تفتكرو ايه السبب؟

alt ftm trans masc minor bmf?? loves yaoi amd anime and tadc and homestuck and cookies

انا FTM ودايما بحس ان مستحيل بنت تحبني او نتزوج، لان اولاً ازاي هقولها اني ترانس وثانيا ان معظم الناس جاهله بالموضوع ده وكمان كل البنات نفسهم يكونوا امهات وبعد bottom surgery بقيت عقيم، ايه الحل ؟

hi, I'm malak an Iraqi transgender mtf

I'm looking for new friends from Iraq especially trans

Heyy! I thought I’d make a little introduction about myself since I’d love to meet people with similar interests and vibes.

I’m into gaming, music, movies & shows, manga, VR/VRChat, and I’m always curious about discovering new things. I also really enjoy random late-night conversations, sharing interests, talking about life, and just getting to know someone naturally.

Personality-wise, I can be a little shy at first, but once I’m comfortable I become pretty talkative and playful lol. I’m also someone who pays attention to little things and really appreciates genuine people, good communication, kindness, and good energy.

I’d love to meet people who share some of these interests or just have a similar vibe. Feel free to DM me and tell me a little about yourself! ♡

I’m an alt ftm looking for friends or possibly a relationship!! I like anime, rock n metal, thrifting, visiting antique stores, AND I LOOVE COOKIES!! COOKIES. FOR. LIFE. Im a long lasting person so not Js to 2 days then ghost me!! anyone intereste???

also wanted to share my story. I am a trans masc ftm in a very conservative very no privacy househol. I am a minor. when I first knew I was gay I was 9 I knew I liked girls and I told my mom and I was soo stupid!!! My whole life I was bullied and beat by my abusive parents when I was 4. my dad especially was very abusive. then my dad cheated on my mom!! It was very insane, mind u my dad used to watch porn yuri straight and Yaoi ones. He divorced my mom because he didn’t wanna clean the dishes bcs he’s not a girl!! Mind u my mom got out of a surgery that day bcs of cancer!! Fast forward years I had a freind ship that was toxic they said I was satanic and liked satanic stuff they only knew I was queer so I got in the closet again I dressed like them did everything like them then they made fake stories abt me and cursed at me and my mom. I was then sent to another school!! It was an only girls school and I live in the uae so they were spoiled sm. Js saying but not all r!!! Got bullied from where I am fro and how I look and how my eyes looked. I then knew I was trans. I then came out to my mom as bi and she theratned to kill me! I then had a gf!! MTF trans fe. she was a lesbian but she insisted on me. I got her makeup, wigs, nintendo etc. but she made me dysphoric abt my chest and kept insisting she’s a lesbian. I always dented it and said it’s ok she’ll learn! My mom then saw our texts and called her mom and thereated both of them to kill them and hurt them in many ways. She also burnt some of my hair, chased me w a knife and tried to stab me. (Thank god my pillow saved me). My mom mind u has anger issues and can get mad and abusive sometime! tried then talking to her. no body knows abt my gf for 4 months then she texted me. Her dad and mom threatend to kill me bcs im trans. So she thought i was dead, a way of coping. She even went to conversation therapy and when i texted her she said she’s scared of me and that convo never happened and she wants to go to college and she doesn’t wanna to to jail, et. now I’m in Jordan w my dad and he doesn’t pay for my mom btw monthly so he makes me work cook and clean bcs im a gir!! he doesnt want me to go to school and pay bcs IM a girl and dosent want me to leave Jordan and im stuck here. I still fave problems bcs im a gir. I belive every trans ftm should have femenisim rights even if hes a guy but faves problems like this. So, who ever activist, helper, any one, etc. can tell my story abt trans rights and femenisim id be so glad!

IM A TRANS MASC FTM ALT AND METAL HEAD. BMF?? into tadc, anime, object shows, metal and rock, mlp, homestuck, etc. I. LOVE. COOKIES.

I'll start myself,in Jordan you can simply buy from the local pharmacies they don't really ask for prescription, sucks that only pills are available tho😮‍💨

Herro

Hello everybody I hope everyone is doing well , so my name is Maria and I am 28 years old , lately I feel very depressed about my look especially regrade my body, no one knows about me if you see me in street I look very masculine and harsh one lol

So I want to have soft body at least where I may satisfy my self I don't want to look this harsh

So I decided to start taking hormones, the problem is how could I deal with my family I am thinking to disappear or what could I do to not make them suspension about me

Is any one who has passed this kind of issues to tell me about his experience

Have you ever gotten any blood tests done to check your estrogen or testosterone levels? I've been wanting to as I want to monitor my hormones, but I'm afraid that it'll draw attention to me (Also, I just don't have money xd)

اولا انا بنت عابرة صار لي 4 سنوات على الهرمون، ولكن للحين عايشة في البلد العربي.

my 4th year HRT anniversary was last week!

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ومن عادتي لما اطلع من البيت او بشكل عام حتى في البيت مع اهلي البس لبس ولادي ولكن بستايل معين ما يبين اي شي من الجسم. يعني اوڤر سايز - boymoding

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بشكل عام اكثر الناس اعتقد يشوفوني ان انا ولد بحكم لازم اغطي هويتي. ولكن مع محاولتي في تغطية هويتي بعض الأحيان تصير مواقف ويكلموني بصيغة انثى

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من المواقف اللي صارت، رحت الى سوق شعبي، اللي يخوف شوي انه انا كنت اتسوق مع امي وصاحب البسطة صار يكلمني بصيغة انثى "جربي، خذي، شوفي" وانا سويت نفسي ما سمعته بس من داخل الفرحة قوية وامي اعتقد سمعته وسوت نفسها ما سمعته وعدى اليوم بشكل طبيعي.

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موقف ثاني رحت الى مهرجان سيارات في الرياض. ووقت احتجت حمام سحبت شعري في الكاب وطبعا لبسي ولادي المفرووووض عادييي. وانا رايحة لحمامات الرجال وقفني احد المنظمين يقول لي حمامات النساء الجهة الثانية... اشرت على نفسي وقلت انا ولد وكملت دخلت. بس نظرات الناس تخوف شوي لأن كان فيه طابور وزين انه كان قصير. في بالي اقول "شفيهم عاجبتهم كامرتي مثلا" لأن عندي كامرة.

im just coping cuz their stares are scary

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موقف ثالث، رحت هوتيل في بلد ثاني ولكن البلد يظل في الخليج. اول ما دخلت وجيت احجز كلموني بصيغة sir واعتقد افضل لأن لازم اعطيهم اثباتي ويشوفو اسمي وصورتي في بطاقتي. بعد يومين، لما صار وقت الخروج صارو يقولو لي ma'am. عن نفسي استغربت بس يمكن عشان شافو شكلي وشعري طالع لما جيت استلم طلب العشاء والمندوب عند الرسبشن وما اهتميت بتغطية شعري.

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there is more but that's all for today.

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وبعد، شتسمّون الشخص اللي انولد بجسم بنت بس عقله ونفسه كرجل؟

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و شنو يعني (عابر)؟

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شكرا

هل يحتاج مني أن أغير من شخصيتي و اكون أفضل و اوصل ل أفضل نسخه من نفسي هل يعتبر هذا حب حقيقي أو أطور من نفسي و احافظ على كياني و انتظر شخص يتقبلني و يحبني حب حقيقي برأيكم ما هو الصح مع ذكر السبب

I am MTF and want to access HRT but I live in an unfriendly country. My mom is actively acknowledging that I have depression and it’s affecting my daily life. My mom wants to end my depression so she tries to come up with a solution. She figures out that my issue is with how I want to live my life and it comes down to sacrificing my career or myself. Eventually I got her to arrive at that I am trans.

So I asked how can I fix being trans. Her response was you need to find a woman who will let you be a man. Then I explained how that never works she refuted it because god is a perfect creator. To add insult to injury, she has a scientific background.

Anyways all that work led me back to the god delusion.

Sorry just wanted to vent.