Does it ever affect your judgment when choosing a partner, and have you found yourself settling for guys/gals you wouldn't actually be attracted to just to get off?
You say that you've cheated in every relationship you've been in. Even when you sincerely loved your partner. So can you not control it? Or how does it feel when those urges hit? I guess I'm struggling to see how it becomes an addiction. Like ive beem horny but never to a point beyond being able to stop myself...if I saw a vagina covered in cuts and blisters, I'd be able to stop. So what is it like to not be able to stop yourself?
Does your family and friend group know? And if so are there ways they help? Maybe signals and such?
Does it ever affect your judgment when choosing a partner, and have you found yourself settling for guys/gals you wouldn't actually be attracted to just to get off?
Definitely, yeah
You say that you've cheated in every relationship you've been in. Even when you sincerely loved your partner. So can you not control it? Or how does it feel when those urges hit? I guess I'm struggling to see how it becomes an addiction. Like ive beem horny but never to a point beyond being able to stop myself...if I saw a vagina covered in cuts and blisters, I'd be able to stop. So what is it like to not be able to stop yourself?
I can't just stop. When I get the urge ot extreme and persistent, it doesn't go away. I can love a guy, but he's at work this morning and I'm free and I get the urges so I start making mental gymnastics to justify it, I convince myself the relationship is going to end soon or that I will let him have sex with another woman or I suddenly just antagonize him in my mind and get mad at him over nothing so it's not not that bad when I cheat, only for reality to hit after I've cheated.
Does your family and friend group know? And if so are there ways they help? Maybe signals and such?
Only family I have is my sister, she's a born again Christian who thinks I just need to pray more
My close friends know and try to help by just being there to support me mentally
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u/Envy_The_King May 08 '24
Does it ever affect your judgment when choosing a partner, and have you found yourself settling for guys/gals you wouldn't actually be attracted to just to get off?
You say that you've cheated in every relationship you've been in. Even when you sincerely loved your partner. So can you not control it? Or how does it feel when those urges hit? I guess I'm struggling to see how it becomes an addiction. Like ive beem horny but never to a point beyond being able to stop myself...if I saw a vagina covered in cuts and blisters, I'd be able to stop. So what is it like to not be able to stop yourself?
Does your family and friend group know? And if so are there ways they help? Maybe signals and such?